With Enlightenment, the "Experiencer" died in me, and a "Knower" was born. This "Knower" was in perfect knowing of what has happened to me, what is happening to the body, to the senses, emotions, who is Enlightened, and what is Reality, what is Duality/Maya/Relative Reality and a lot, lot more. This "Knower" was the warehouse of Cosmic Wisdom and I could access whatever, and whenever. 

This "Knower" was beyond time and space and was perfect "Awareness", "Pure Consciousness" itself, performing the function of "knowing". It was always aware of happening, events around, and what lessons are pending for me to learn, how to learn them, what to do, what to do not. 

We always have this "Knower" within us, which knows the TRUTH, which in fact is the TRUTH itself and at a smaller scale we call it "Intuition/Gut Feeling". But this "Knower" is not so functional or in our direct perception, because of that "Experiencer" making so much noise all the time and eating up all the space of our existence. Always telling us, OK I experienced this, now what next, what next, what next? When that "Experiencer/Personality" died, that "Knower" became my Existence or the plane where I existed.  

Life completely changed as I saw and understood from this plane, nothing was same any longer. First gift (Boon) & challenge (Curse) (yes simultaneously existing) that I had to deal with was that whomsoever I talked, I could clearly see through them, their personality, their whole existence was bare-naked in front of me, and when I said something it did not make any sense for them, as their "perception" was still through their personality, their mind/ego. Imagine I tried to tell them about themselves and they had no way to understand it, perceive it, see it. I became an odd-ball soon and made a fool out of myself. 

Personality/Experiencer died in me, so the "Knower" was living and communicating in the world of people whose personality was very strong and alive. How to deal with all that? Who is there within me to deal with all that? I had no one who could explain me, how to live from this plane of "Knowing". Ultimately after few months I had to stop. Stopped talking to people altogether as much as was avoidable. This wasn't too hard for me, as I lived a life being an "Introvert". Still, it was painful seeing that so many around just do not see the Truth, do not see the Reality. There arose a desire to just help them, help as many as possible, help the loved ones, and help everyone. 

But the point is, everyone has this "Knower" within, it's just that their "personality/experiencer" is hiding it, closing the door of Cosmic Wisdom, the TRUTH. But maybe they haven't experienced "enough", they haven't had enough "pain" to cause "renunciation" in their mind. After all not, ALL Lemons are ripe on the Tree the same day, which is perfectly fine. Some will ripen today, some will be ripe tomorrow or a day after, but every lemon will be ripe, one way or the other, that's the final outcome, final destination, there is no other way to be. 

So I made peace with that "Knower" within me, and with the world around me. But then came the inquisitiveness to know what else exists? How many dimensions? What all is the TRUTH? How vast is this Relative Reality, this Maya? But since the "Experiencer" was dead, I could not think of Experiencing anything, instead, whatever I wanted to know started coming to me as a deep knowing within, until I realized that there is no limit, this Creation, Maya is endless and can appear to be whichever way one looks at it. It can take Gazillion forms and shapes. Just as there is "no limit" to experiencing, one could go on and on forever until Infinity, in the same way, there is no end to Knowing, it could go on until Infinity. The knower, in me, stopped trying to consume Infinity. Not that it's not possible, it is, since the "Knower" is in the Domain of "Pure Consciousness", in the Domain of Ultimate Creation, it is possible, but what is the point? Why go on that endless feat? Why waste so much time? When we go to buy clothes, and we have a goal to achieve, we do not end up wearing, trying on ALL the clothes that are there in the store. Similarly, when Liberation is the goal, why waste time?

Now this is the major lesson to learn here, that Human Experiences and Human Knowing could go on forever, so somewhere we have to draw a line and realize that it's enough. We cannot let Experiences and Knowing distract us at the cost of our goal of Liberation. No more fooling around while having a healthy human body. 

Finally I was ready to give up this "Knower" and too much knowing didn't help me much, since the "personality" was dead already, I wasn't trying to know anything to impress anyone or to reveal the Universe to this world, or to create some sort of "Super Knowa (Knower) Personality" within. The world that I was living in, people that I had around everything stayed the same, my knowing made no difference to my life or anyone else's life. I realized it's better and safer to NOT KNOW Everything! It's easier to live little ignorant. 

Then came the time, when I looked up to the sky and said, "I AM READY". Without knowing what comes next, without knowing what it will bring, without knowing that I was asking for DEATH, complete ANNIHILATION. 

The Knower in me didn't make any effort to know anything anymore!

~ Prakriti