Oh c'mon I have changed! Really, Seriously?

When you are walking Spiritual Path consciously it is very important that you understand the difference between "Change" and "Transformation" and focus on Transformation and not change.

The word "change" itself means it can change, can change back, it's a continuous process, it is a movement which is mostly due to changed circumstances, events in life. If you have someone around you who expects you to behave in a certain way you will change yourself accordingly when you are around that person. Suppose you are a compulsive talker and a person whom you like is a quiet one, then around him/her you will change yourself to stay quiet, but the moment you are away from him/her you will be back as a chatterbox. If a person around you is Spiritual and doesn't involve himself/herself much in the useless mundane then just to stick around with them you will listen to their Spiritual talks and will ask questions accordingly, but the moment you are away from that person you will be back to your mundane and useless world as you belong there and that's who you truly are. If you are with a Truthful person, you will try to be truthful, but the moment you are with others you are back to your throne of lies. In a nutshell, you become like Chameleon, who will change color according to the circumstances and will adjust for the time-being but very soon will be back to the Original.

When this Original goes through an "irreversible, radical change" then it is called as Transformation. Transformation is not continuous, it is not a process, it happens once for a kind/type and it's done. It's like how a Larvae becomes a Butterfly and once it becomes a butterfly there is no going back, it cannot become Larvae again. It cannot go back to the cocoon and be pupa again. Transformation is not a process, it doesn't take long, it can happen in a moment, in the blink of an eye.

Change is an activity by your Mind, while Transformation happens through increased Awareness, it's a permanent change in Consciousness. Change is like modifying the architecture of a building, but Transformation means changing the building blocks itself. The mind is unstable, the mind is clever, and mind keeps on moving like a pendulum and will cause misery. By changing yourself you will not find Peace within, because the moment you change you are under a lot of pressure to not change back to your old ways, to your so called adopted originality. When you are Transformed you are at Peace because the change was not circumstantial, it wasn't forced from outside, it is permanent and there is no one inside you to fight against its stability. I have heard many saying that - I changed so much due to life, due to circumstances, for him or for her, but still there is no Peace, no comfort within. Yes! true! how can there be? Because you are changing yourself and not transforming yourself. You are changing yourself according to society, according to your friends, family, relatives, loved ones.

When external circumstances are "causing" the change then the moment those external circumstances changes to something else you will change again, so there is no permanence at all, no peace in your heart.

A lot of you come to me claiming that you have changed, yes I agree you have changed your way of life because you found new concepts of living, you found something that excites you more now, you found something which seems more important, meaningful, purposeful to you now. But within yourself, there is a constant struggle to not go back to your old ways and you want to make those external circumstances permanent, which is not going to happen in this ever-changing world. So you are continuously at war with yourself, your inside plane is a battlefield and fight is always on. Therefore despite changing yourself, you are not at peace.

And when you are so busy changing yourself, you are also busy either expecting or really trying to change others around you. It becomes a hyper-reactionary world, causes more misery, more suffering. Next time you try to be chameleon see if it is truly, deeply making you happy? Learn to notice and see the futility of your chameleon efforts.

So then, how should one go through Transformation? How to make it happen?

First and the foremost thing is to acknowledge and accept the way mind tries to be clever and forces you into the change according to the circumstances. Witness it, accept it and let it go. Stop being a chameleon!

Second and the last step is to increase your Awareness, by changing the quality, level of your Consciousness which cannot be achieved without achieving the Meditative State. Hence there is so much focus on breathing practices (Pranayama), Yoga, just to cultivate the Meditativeness in you. You cannot be meditative just by sitting and closing your eyes and focusing on Mantra or Yantra or music or something else. Most people need some Pranayama for few months or years before they can actually begin to truly be in the meditative state. So start somewhere from some practice and see where it leads you. Not everyone has to go through every step in the same sequence, it's a very personal and unique journey and steps given to you by your Guru/Guide are just for you, don't go on re-prescribing them to others around you.

~ Adiguru

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99,000 Sheep

There is a saying back home that "there are 99,000 Sheep while there are 5 Lions in a Jungle". Now as we all know Sheep lives in herds, large groups, have similar ideas and concepts of life and most importantly they all follow one another. Contrary to this Lions usually roams around alone, have very different ideas and concepts of life and they are independent beings for most of their lives. Lion's can't be domesticated and Sheep will never be called "WILD".

Is it Sheep's fault that she is born as a sheep or is it Lion's fault that it is born as a Lion? No! Being born the way they are now is nobody's fault. Sheep are born with FEAR as the Core of their Being, while Lion's are born with COURAGE as the Core of their Being.

Sheep builds a safety net around her life because the core of her being is Fear. They follow whatever principles or rules of life were given to them by the elders, they are super afraid to venture out alone and find out the TRUTH by themselves. Their idea of family or in other words security comes when the number of family members is at least 4, 6 or more, they never understand that 2 could be a family too. When entire jungle has only 5 or so Lions then 2 is a perfect family. Sheep have their own concept of happiness, unhappiness which is mostly derived by the hypocritical way of living or what they have been told by the society, elders or whomsoever and they rant a lot if they see anyone around not complying with their principles, concepts of life that they built out of their physical, emotional, mental insecurity. Sheep lives a mentally and emotionally boxed life, they maintain hard boundaries if not truly then at least to show their herd and society that they live in. They lack the courage to break any boundary of society, herd and their world. For Sheep there is NO TRUTH beyond what they have been told. There is NO Question of trying to find any Truth, just stick to the pre-designed life and go by the rules of society, elders, parents and the herd.

Hence they never find the Truth/Brahm/Self/That and end up living a fearful life.

Quite the opposite is Lion who's life revolves around Courage. Lion ventures out alone to unknown lands and is not afraid to find out what is there and face the Truth by himself. Lion's life is "free" of all concepts, notions, and principles of life, he builds them as he goes. Lion's do not follow one another and mostly have their territory marked by choice with strength. Lion's idea of happiness and unhappiness and family is not built up of what they were told by elders or any tom, dick and harry. By living the life they find out the meaning of life. Lion doesn't live a boxed life, his spirit soars high and he does roars high.

Now again, it's nobody's fault that a Sheep is sheep and lives out of Fear, and Lion is the emblem of Courage and Strength. They both are born differently, they both are poles apart in their life.

The problem comes when Sheep starts convincing and imposing their concepts, principles of life on Lion. Lion never goes around and imposes his principles of Courage on Sheep, because Lions can smell a Sheep. Due to fluffy ears and narrowly focused vision, it becomes hard for Sheep at times to spot a Lion. Sheep rants a lot you can hear them for hours going "Beh-Beh" non-stop, while you may have never heard a Lion roaring continuously even 5 times in an hour. Kids spend hours in zoo standing in front of a Lion to hear one roar of Courage.

The question here is are you a Sheep or are you a Lion? The answer to this will tell where you will end up with your Spiritual Path. How far will you ever go on your Spiritual Journey? If you are a Sheep forget about even starting the REAL Spiritual Journey, you will NEVER even find the door, or you may end up standing in front of the door, but will never find the courage to go in. And it's not even about Spiritual Journey, as a Sheep you will end up living a "suffocating, hypocritical" life based on your false assumptions and principles. If you are fine by this, go on, keep on living that way, nobody is stopping you. Lions do not need an army of Sheep, only Sheep want Lion to be on their side. Lion can understand Sheep's fear, but Sheep has no way to know Lion's Courage and Strength.

The day you are not fine by yourself living like that and you display fearlessness in life, Courage and Strength inside your heart, I will give you Shaktipath, I will take you with me on the path of Liberation/Moksha, the path to Realize Brahm!

Until then just live your life and do not preach any Lion!

~ Adiguru

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Play (Leela) by Consciousness

Consciousness reflects through in the form of the body, mind, and emotions and its play go on and on. As a result, one may achieve something in life and lose another and it seems like an endless play. No one ever seems happy and satisfied and the impermanence is the only permanence that one experiences. Life seems like a roller coaster ride. Regardless of how many lectures one gets, or knowledge one hoards about getting off of that roller coaster, only a few are able to make it safely, for most, it's a crash landing.

Is it anyone's fault?

At each and every step in life, we are exercising our choice. But the choices are often lead by inherent fears, attachments, and our need for more financial, emotional security which results in more suffering. Though to start with, those choices may be wrapped in a promising package. When life seems quiet the attention comes to Self, but that's what you all want to avoid and you go on planning and doing stuff which may not even be necessary, you make efforts to change the environment, circumstances, anything that's outside of you, and go on avoiding effort and time that is needed to change the inside of you. You want to make life happier by changing outer circumstances only.
Regardless of what choice we make, we are bound to suffer. But is the suffering really happening to the "Real You"? No, it is not. But damn it feels that way. There is no end to figuring out all the factors and be extra careful next time and all those negative, positive schools of thought. You can never save yourself permanently from the suffering, pain, you can only buy some time or actually waste time. The story is never ending. Why?

Because Pure Consciousness out of which this whole creation comes out is "never ending". Sea of Consciousness is Infinite and out of that comes out Infinite possibilities different realms, people, species, directions, dimensions, time, space and everything. Consciousness goes on playing forever through and as rocks, mountains, rivers, trees, animals, humans, angels, spirits and whatever else one can ever think of. There is no end to Experiencing and Knowing. There is no end to make life better by doing, doing, doing and knowing.

One must take a BREAK! For at least couple of years in life say "no" to external changes that unnecessarily involve you, prick your brain and in a long term vision of at least 10 years down the lane, seem sheer foolishness today. Take those couple of years to change the INSIDE of you instead, enhance the Quality of the Being who you are. Consciousness can play outward or inward, both are still the play of it, but through inward play, you stand a chance to achieve Peace, Bliss, and Love, your permanent states, your own immortality.

Once you turn inward, and someday find the "real you" through Self Realization, the play of Consciousness will still not end, but you will not be impacted by it. You will abide in Self, in Peace! After Self-Realization, Mother Pure Consciousness, Adi Shakti may choose to still keep playing through you as a Guru, or as Mr./Ms Unknown, or a Mystic or just a super ordinary person. it is not your choice, but you will not be affected. Earlier even though you were given choices, you still were not peaceful, so what is the point? Stop taking seriously outer circumstances and people in your life. Calm down and start your journey inward.

Later after Self Realization, Pure Consciousness will start the Cosmic Leela/Play through you in many ways!

~ Adiguru

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Synchronization & Opening Heart Chakra/Center

Synchronization needs to be achieved within. What you feel is what you think, you are not having thoughts that deny or suppress your feelings, instead are true to what you are feeling, when you express those thoughts, your words are not masking your thoughts, your words are not giving another fake face or a different image to your thoughts, and when you are taking an action, it is exactly how your words are expressed. You are a person who stands for what you say. Alignment between emotions/feelings, thoughts, speech/words, and action is what is called as Synchronization within. The presence of Synchronization is an absence of "conflict". The absence of conflict means having a "quiet mind". Because mind will not have anything to process. Mind keeps working because there is a conflict within. In order to achieve the state of witnessing, the mind needs to be quiet. But can you sit in meditation or do pranayama whole day? No! You cannot do this. Then how do we quiet our mind? What is it that is "activating" the mind?

Conflict within! No synchronization between emotions, thoughts, words, and actions. You feel one thing, you think another, and you say completely different thing, and your actions are mere reactions.

Now how can one understand and start working towards Synchronization?

Silence

If you are an introvert, then you can skip the practice part of the Silence, though you can read it for knowledge. All ambiverts and extroverts need to read this and practice this. STOP TALKING is what I will say if I need, to put it bluntly. Stop expressing, talking and constantly chatting with one person or the other about "you" and your so called problems. Why? Because you are not in sync within yourself, and you are just putting up different faces in front of different people. All false/fake faces and images that you have built so far are being strengthened. It's not helping you, it's harming you. By talking, chatting you are channeling energy towards your mind and you are making yourself even more restless and anxious, even though temporarily you may feel bit relaxed. That's a false relaxation, which comes from all energy being consumed by your mind/aham/Ego/faces/images. It's not relaxation, it's energy drain through wrong outlets.

So strictly observe Silence for a week or more, so that feelings that you have inside starts bubbling up, and starts gathering like a Volcano that is about to erupt. Yes, take yourself into that state first. You keep chatting, talking and those feelings, that energy just keeps on erupting in bits and pieces instead of collected and funneled to open your heart chakra. If you are in a household setting, yes do talk about stuff that helps running the household or job and take care of kids, spouse etc. But do not talk about "how you feel, what is happening, what could be happening to you and blah blah blah. No talking about your feelings, emotions, thoughts, body, mind, energy at all for a week or more if you are a "slow cooker".

Introspection

After a week or so, when it feels like you are about to blast and you start looking for something, feeling as if you need a break, or you need to run away to a far away place, you are restless, anxious, stressed beyond your limits, then sit down ALONE with a pen and paper in your hand. Notice "how" you are feeling? "What" emotions you have inside exactly? Pay attention to your feelings/emotions, whatever it is. You are not showing this to anyone else, so no need to be crafty and clever here. No need to deny if you are feeling shitty. It happens to all of us, and it's perfectly normal. Stay with your feelings for 10-15 minutes, just observe, no need to START Analyzing. No need to start thinking "why, how, why me, what is the purpose" kind of silly questions right now. Let it be just what it is. Now come up with ONE word, "pleasant" or "unpleasant" based off of how you felt during those 10-15 minutes and write it down on that paper. No need to write and define that entire bundle of different emotions that are bubbling up in you. Just write pleasant or unpleasant and we are done with the investigation of your emotions.

Now let's investigate your thoughts. What thoughts are you having right now? There may be something like this going on in your mind - Oh I am fine, I just need to take care of this, and that and everything will be OK, if I can do this and that it must be fine and everything will work. Or you may be having thoughts like - I do feel really shitty, and I don't know what it is, why do I feel that way, what do I do about it, I am not sure why I always feel this way inside, maybe there is something that I do not understand.

Now suppose through Emotional Investigation, you came up with one word as "Unpleasant". Then which line of thoughts above is in "sync" with your emotions/feelings? 2nd one! Which says - I do feel really shitty, and I don't know what it is, why do I feel that way, what do I do about it, I am not sure why I always feel this way inside, maybe there is something that I do not understand. We are done here with thoughts investigation.

Phone ringing! Yes, one of your friends is calling you, while you are busy with this Introspection. Well, consider yourself done, and pick up the phone. TALK!

How did you start the conversation? What did you say to your friend? Oh, I am fine, just busy with the mundane and what are the plans for weekend and blah blah, means all talks towards putting up a face in front of the world and talking bullshit again. Or did you start the conversation as - Hey I am not feeling good right now, I am just feeling really shitty inside, could you please give me few hours/days to put myself together and I will call you back. A close friend might say - Oh that's bad, tell me what happened, did something happened, or do you need my help? And you can simply say "No, I think I can handle myself, I will explain you later when I understand it, I don't know what it is right now, I would like to be left alone please". OK I understand, a friend might say, and that friend will leave you alone, else HANG UP. Yes, hang up, because the one who cannot leave you alone and cannot give you time to resolve within and take care of yourself is not a friend at all, instead a nosey person who is simply very interested in your personal business. Stay away from such people. And you need not tell that you are feeling bad within to just anyone and everyone, you can simply choose to not pick up the phone at all, or you can simply say I am busy, please call later. I am not talking about those cases where you do not pick up the phone, or you do not need to say how you feel within. I am talking here about a scenario where you do talk, then in that case, what exactly do you talk. And I do understand that sometimes we do have to put up a happy face, and occasionally doing that is OK, I am not talking about that occasional case here either.

Analysis

Now let's say you identified your emotions/feelings as unpleasant and you found your thoughts to be aligned with your unpleasant feelings and your words/speech with your friend are also aligned with your thoughts. That means you are "in sync" and you will not waste your energy towards your mind. There is no conflict within. You will simply go for a walk, with or without music in your ears, or will get up and do gardening, or something that will change your emotional state in a healthy way and while doing something, you will get a resolution, an answer within as to "why" were you feeling the way you were feeling, you will suddenly understand all by yourself, while focusing on gardening, or walking or weather or anything that you might be doing. Within an hour or two or maybe four, or maybe in two and half days you will be perfectly fine, and would be happily talking to your friend and might be explaining him/her that now you understand why this happens, or what to learn from this or that.

Let's take an opposite example. Suppose you found that you are feeling unpleasant within, but you are having thoughts like - No this couldn't be true, I am not like this, I cannot be this way, this cannot happen to me, I am not going to let this happen to me, I will wreck this, that or blast here and there, I will fix this or that...nobody should know.. That means you are DENYING and NOT ACCEPTING what you are feeling. You are not at all loving yourself. You are denying the cry of your inner child. You are playing like a very strict, mental self-image bound master. You are being cruel to yourself. Or if you are having thoughts like - oh what if this unpleasantness is causing cancer to me, or what if I do this and it turns out to be that way, means your mind is IMAGINING WILD, it is creating FEARFUL thoughts in you, based off of your unpleasant feelings/emotions. That means you are OVER DECORATING your emotions and creating fears in you. Fears are nothing but mind's wild imagination. You are creating your own horror story. And by doing so, you are again being cruel to your inner child, you are trying to scare that poor inner child because she is feeling unpleasant, so next time she dares not to come up with anything unpleasant. You are not accepting "what is", instead, are putting energy towards "what worst could be". Whom are you scaring? Yourself! Why? Because you don't know how to deal with difficult emotions/feelings. But who doesn't know how to deal with unpleasantness? That fake/false image which your mind is putting up right now in order to deal with that. It's not YOU who doesn't know how to deal with that, it's that fake image that you have created to deal with yourself. If that fake/false image is creating fear, fire it from its job. Stop right there, do not imagine anymore, change your physical state, do something else, or just say a loud shut-up, or just say you understand the drama, and you are not going to buy it so that mind/aham/Ego/fake self-image stops churning more fearful thoughts. Anytime any thought arises which creates fear, or which makes you believe that you lack confidence, or that you are not self-sufficient, please fire this self-image. Recognize it, name it as "Weirdo, or Sicko" or something else, and whenever it starts doing this to you, just say to yourself "Oh Weirdo is up again, shut up now baby, I am not buying into your theories" and then don't pay attention for some time. Slowly you will have the power within, strength within and this "Ms/Mr. Weirdo" will not come back.

Within few weeks, or months, you will start having love towards your inner child, you will not deny or suppress your feelings, instead will acknowledge them for what and as they are. Once this happens that means your emotions/feelings are in Synchronization with your Thoughts.

Now next step is to synchronize Speech/Words with your thoughts. That means you must be speaking your mind at all times. What is it that stops you as of now from achieving this? Your 5-10-15 different Self-Images that you have created to show off to this world. Self-image as a Spouse, as a Parent, as an Employee, as a Son/Daughter, as a Brother/Sister, as a Friend and so on... When you speak your mind to any of these people, your relevant self-image comes up. You may be a chicken inside, but you may have put up a Bravo kind of self-image in front of your spouse/lover, and now no matter how many real fearful thoughts you may be having, your words will always be hiding the truth. You may have put up a very caring/loving face towards your parents/siblings/relatives, but within you, you may be harboring acute bitterness towards those people. So your words will always be full of seductive honey, while feelings and thoughts may be completely different.

You see here the point that I am trying to make. Your Self-Images are THE CONFLICT with your Heart/Emotions/Feelings/Thoughts. Why have such self-images which hide the Truth? What will happen if you speak the truth the way you feel it? What worse can happen? These people will go away, leave you alone. So what? If they truly love you, then they will understand your bitterness and will try to explain you, or change themselves. Otherwise, they are anyways not the people worth having in your life, so why worry? Keeping others in your life by constantly lying to them, hiding the truth from them is a WASTE of LIFE. Because this is exactly what is making you weaker and weaker. You are fearful to speak the truth because you are so much attached to your self-image. As it is said...Half Truth is a Whole Lie. Why live a life full of lies? You are not fooling anyone else, you are only fooling yourself. Change this. Start speaking truth, give up your attachment to your own self-images that you have built, shatter them nicely and be happy about it, because now you are FREE.

A person living in synchronization of feelings, thoughts, and words is a free person. Such a person has more energy left to run the life and such a person doesn't get sick with psychosomatic illnesses and seasonal allergies. The mind of such a person is free of useless thoughts, there is no conflict or turbulence within to shake him/her. This person is not living for and not living as any cleverly crafted self-centric, self-images of himself/herself. He/She is a happy, jovial being. Yes, many people may not like him/her, as this person is not a people pleaser anymore, he/she is brutally honest, but he/she wears the heart on the sleeve and have REAL HONEST friends, people around who truly value friendship or relationship with such a person. Who needs fake people around, based off of your own fakeness and lies?

If you attain Synchronization of feelings, thoughts, and words then no wonder your actions will be aligned accordingly too. Because not doing what you feel, think and say would feel like a very heavy thing. You will not feel right within, so actions will align themselves.

Synchronization is also called as "being true to yourself".

Once a person starts living in synchronization, he/she starts learning the lessons of life/death, lessons of love and Heart Chakra starts opening, flowering as a result.

All that I explained above in terms of Tantra is called as "Bhuta/Bhoota/Elements Shuddhi/Purification" or "Chakra Cleansing". Releasing fears are cleaning/purification of the Root Chakra or Element Earth. Recognizing and deleting false self-images and living your Truth with confidence is cleansing/purification of the Sacral Chakra or Water element. Strengthening the Will Power to release fears, and delete the false self-images to live your truth is the cleansing/purification of the Solar Plexus Chakra or Fire Element. Opening your Heart Chakra by living in Synchronization is part of purification of Air Element. Being truthful in speech/words that you speak not only to others but most importantly to yourself, is the purification of Space/Ether Element or Throat Chakra. In order to cleanse your chakras, or purify elements (Bhuta Shuddhi) a person can chant Bija/Seed Mantra for years and see if something happens. Or he/she can take charge of their life RIGHT AWAY, and start understanding everything. Because no matter how many years you chant Bija Mantras, or try to raise your Kundalini if Heart is closed nothing will work. Heart Chakra is the MOST important chakra and should be opened FIRST, before raising Kundalini or opening any other chakra. Heart Chakra is one chakra, which CANNOT be open by another person through any other means. Shaktipath or Kundalini Masters CANNOT and WILL NOT ever open your Heart Chakra. Shaktipath, Kundalini masters can raise your Kundalini and can give you more energy to increase the activity of your lower chakras, which will be "detrimental" to your progress if your heart chakra is closed.

Why can no one open your heart chakra?

Heart Chakra teaches us Self-Love. Until we truly start loving ourselves and start living a truthful life, we are not even Human, let alone be Divine. Heart Chakra holds ground for Human-ness and is the open sky for Divinity. Heart chakra teaches us Unconditional Love, Unconditional Surrender, and Unconditional Life. The heart chakra is the bridge between human and divine. That bridge is made up of FAITH. Faith in your own humanness and faith in the divine. Acknowledgment and Acceptance of Humanity and Divinity within.  Loving Surrender to humanity and divinity within. Without cleaning this bridge, this runway you are not going to fly anywhere baby.

Heart Chakra is also the one, which REFLECTS the SELF by embodying the Energy/Shakti in the form of Sat-Chit-Ananda when a person is Self-Realized. Heart Chakra is the one from where the INTENSITY of those 1000 petals of Crown Chakra shines through as 1000 people. Heart Chakra is the place which becomes a burial ground for "I-Thought", where I-Thought actually gets purified and shines forth as Pure Consciousness instead of Personal/Individual Consciousness. The Heart chakra is what embodies Bliss, Love, and Peace and lets it flow freely towards the humanity and divinity in all the others around. Its element is "Air", quality/virtue of which is "Freedom". Moksha/Liberation is felt through Heart Chakra only. That freedom is felt and expressed through heart chakra only.

Can anyone ever give you all of this from outside, through Shaktipath or through some other way?

No way! Do not fool yourself. If you are expecting all this to happen by itself, or through some outside force, then you are denying "that you are born as a human being". You are born as a human being to learn the lessons of Heart Chakra ONLY. All the other lower chakras are nothing but the Reflection of Open/Closed Heart Chakra. If you have Fear (Root Chakra), that means you "do not love yourself". If you are putting up self-images (Sacral Chakras), then that means you do not have Faith in your heart, and it means heart chakra is closed and the lesson to learn is "Faith". All the issues/blockages of 4 other elements/chakras are nothing but Reflection of Heart Chakra's State. All other chakras were given to you to see how your heart/heart-face looks like right now from different angels. All other chakras are the mirrors for Heart. If you are cleansing any lower chakras and dealing with issues of lower chakras that in other words mean you are learning the lessons of the heart chakra. After "theory of relativity" from Einstein, this is the "Theory of Reflectivity" from me (Laughter).

Love yourself, live in Synchronization within and rest will happen by itself, may it be an Enlightenment and/or Self Realization. Divinity will take care of itself, you take care of your own humanness and embody it in a healthy and loving way.

~Adiguru

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Turning Inward

What is meant by turning inward? Most people struggle with this initial thing, the very first step that one has to take in order to walk the Spiritual path consciously. Misunderstanding, the difficulty arises due to the wrong perception that "one already knows oneself". No, accept that you do not know yourself and that's what this whole journey is about, that's what the whole pursuit is for. You have to find out who you truly are, and who you are not. And in order to do that, one needs to turn inward.

What do you do when you go to buy a car or mobile phone or something else? First of all, you very well know that that car or mobile is NOT YOU. So now you become the Subject and that Car or Mobile becomes an Object. Then you the Subject starts researching and learning about various characteristics, features, cost etc about that Object. In order to successfully get all the information you look for information online, you reach out to companies if needed, you reach out to friends who might have that mobile, or car already, and you try to gather as much information from the RIGHT sources as much possible. Once you have all the information you carefully look into your need, to see which one best fits your requirements.

Now in the similar way you need to be the Subject and treat your Body, Mind, and Emotions as Object. Body mostly functions on its own and doesn't pose much of a hindrance, unless you are sick. So main objects to take care of are Mind and Emotions. Now that Subject and Objects are clear, you need to gather as much information as possible about Mind, how it works, how many functions it has and all its divisions, and for that you might have to go through online research, articles, books, materials and people who know about the mind. This requires "research, study, and learning". You have to do similar research, study and learning about Emotions as well. Remember you "cannot" control or properly drive your car, unless you know "where is steering and how it works", and lots of other useful information about the car. You may never use many high-end security features of the car, but you still need to know about them, in the case of emergency, right? In a similar way, you need to know about Mind and Emotions from every angle, perspective.

Once you know the details about Mind and Emotions, next step is to look into your Mind and your Emotions. Now this requires "being present". And this is where most of the people get stuck, and finds it difficult to move forward. You cannot keep on thinking about who did what to you, what happened in the past, what are your future plans, what you have to do today, feeling bad and constantly thinking about stuff AND be in the present. Either you are in the Past, Future or you are Present. It gets challenging here because we are saying try to learn everything about the car while driving. This may cause an accident, right. You need to stop the car in order to learn about its various features. It's not possible to learn about it and drive simultaneously. The mind is habitual of staying either in the past or future, and the present moment NOW is BEYOND the boundary of mind. Only if you are able to stop the mind and it's nonstop thought process, then only you can look into what patterns are there or what it is doing. The same thing is with Emotions. You are always DEEPLY feeling One Emotion or the other, then how can you examine them successfully and be Objective about it? There won't be any time when Mind won't bring up thoughts of past, future, and Emotions won't go haywire to keep you in the loop and all this will not let you have time to be able to Contemplate, Analyze. You will be using Mind to analyze mind and emotions. It's like operating something/someone ALIVE & MOVING FAST (Laughs). So now what?

Now we need to do something to calm down the mind and cool down the emotional furnace. This is achieved by "raising our consciousness, awareness" to the level where "thoughts & emotions" are no longer severe botheration. It's not that thoughts will stop altogether, and emotional fire will be turned off, it's just that both of these won't be able to bother you much. We are NOT trying to kill mind and dry up emotions because we will need them when the time comes. We only have to create some distance between our Mind, Emotions and us. So the question is how to create this distance? How to raise the POWER of your consciousness, awareness? Now a lot of time you will be advised to do meditation. You may do it for 3 to 6 months and you will lose patience, because meditation for you will be an effort of trying to get rid of thoughts, thoughts will be replaced by another thought like "I do not have to think, I am not thinking, Keep Quiet, or think about Color, Sound or something else. This is truly useless, and trust me I have seen people TRYING to meditate for years, and still not being able to meditate. Understand that you are Trying to meditate here, you are NOT meditating actually. Meditation is the process of going into Meditative State means "Thoughtless State", State of a Silenced Mind, State of BEING IN NOW. By sitting and trying to control mind by mind is futile, or keeping the mind in some other music or some other type of Godly, Heavenly thought is futile and doesn't help. Meditative State when achieved by anyone, then it doesn't matter he/she is cleaning the house, or cooking or working in office or driving or doing anything at all, that state doesn't break, and if it breaks, then it only takes less than 5-10 minutes to be back in that meditative state, or just a snap of fingers, it's that much quick and it's that much controllable. Once you TRULY achieve this state, you will never lose it without knowing.  Also understand that Meditation doesn't mean not addressing your mental drama, and/or emotional drama. If on the name of meditation and spiritual journey, you start avoiding, denying your mind, emotions way too much, you will blast someday like a pressure cooker and/or may get physical and/or psychosomatic illnesses. So, trying to control mind by mind doesn't work so much, instead, one loses confidence or become more delusional thinking that one is meditating now so everything is fine, and no need to do anything else. Most dangerous delusion it is.

So what next? What else can we do to calm down the mind, and cool down emotional fires? What else do we have to achieve this? What else can we use?

You have "Prana" (Vital Energy) which your Breathing generates. Here I am not going to explain you entire Prana Science, and you need not know about all that now in that much greater detail. All you need to know is that after every inhale of breath there is a gap of nanoseconds, and after every exhale there is a gap too. In your Mind, Thoughts arise during these gaps. Most of you have disturbed breathing, shallow breathing, you don't even notice that because mind and emotions keep you so busy. The quality of breathing is directly associated with the Quality of Prana (Vital Energy). Disturbed or shallow breathing means disturbed vital energy. Disturbed vital energy is the reason for anxiety, stress, tension depression and all the psychosomatic issues. So if you focus on breathing (Pranayama), then you are killing two birds with one stone (don't kill birds though :-)). How? By doing some really simple breathing exercises, not only your mind, emotions will calm down, but your vital energy will increase too, which will keep your physical body ailment free, and in a much better condition. One most simple pranayama/breathing exercise is Anulom/Vilom (Alternate Nostril Breathing). You can find out more about it very easily through Internet and tons of free youtube videos are there. Just learn it, and do it for 5 to 11 minutes every morning and evening, sit anywhere, do it anywhere. Slowly over the period of a month, increase the time to 21 minutes. Over the period of 3 months or so, you will notice a substantial difference. Just this Pranayam, Alternate Nostril Breathing is also a very effective way of raising your Kundalini. It actually awakens Kundalini/Power/Shakti/Energy, if you do it seriously. Once you start noticing a difference in you, the effect of Pranayama in you, ADD one more thing to your routine, which is "focus on the breath" while doing anything & everything. Keep your focus on your breath as much as possible. Slowly after couple more months, you will start noticing that you are actually able to look at the sky, clouds, flowers, birds, trees, your surroundings, without "thinking" about anything else. Suddenly you will feel super happy just by noticing this much, that you are able to look at anything, everything without thinking. That means you are in NOW, you are being present. This is your major and first milestone sort of on Spiritual Path. You have successfully "RAISED" your Consciousness/Awareness. Kudos!

In the year 2011, I started with 2 hours long sessions of Pranayamas that I learned from youtube. Yes, I am extremist (High-Intensity Person) (Laughs). The intensity in me is just too much to set simple goals and start low. After 3 months of time, almost 2 hours a day from 3:40 AM to 5:30 AM my Kundalini did awaken and it gave me an intense experience, a glimpse into Reality through very short Nirvikalpa Samadhi which changed me forever. But you need not be an extremist, it depends on from person to person, I guess those who get way too much pain from life and think they are just so done with everyone, everything, they do become highly intense people. Some put that high intensity into wrong, negative purposes, some put it in walking Spiritual Path. The reason I am giving details of my own experience is to let you know that Pranayamas (Breathing Techniques) works! It's thousands of years old proven Science. If I can do it, many others have done it, then you can do it too.

Once you start living in NOW, enjoy that meditative state for some time, to restore the "happiness" in you. Being happy for no reason is a very beautiful experience. And you have earned it, so enjoy it. You will get addicted to this inner joy and whatever will try to disturb it you will address it as soon as possible and be back. Now you will be able to look into your Mental Patterns and Emotional Patterns. You can read more about how to dig deeper into your mind and emotions and do your own postmortem through reflection here. Don't stay stuck here in NOW for too long, don't spend too much time just feeling this inner joy. Why? C'mon, you haven't completed your journey yet, you haven't turned inward yet, so this inner joy is highly volatile and you will struggle way too much whenever you will lose it for few days or weeks. Until you successfully resolve your mental patterns and emotional patterns, the job is not done, and those patterns will keep on wreaking havoc from time to time. So this being in Now is a temporary place, rest-area, the journey is not over yet. I have seen many staying stuck at this stage for years, decades. Whenever life or their own mind, emotions starts beating them, they do pranayama, meditation and try to get back their inner joy. That means it's just a pursuit of wellness for them, which is not bad, but that's not the ultimate goal of doing all this. So start as soon as you are done restoring some inner peace, on the mental and emotional postmortem.

This is what is meant by turning inward. Turning inward means to be able to look at your mind and emotions in a Subject, Object manner and be able to address all past issues, all unresolved issues, that keeps bothering you, that steals your inner joy and keeps you in the suffering.

After turning inward when you have walked all the way inside, you will realize there is no inward, outward, and you will be amazed, in truly knowing yourself, and entirely. Suffering will end, life will be a Celebration in every moment". Now, who wouldn't want that? The question is how badly, intensely you want to know yourself, how mad, crazy you are about finding the True You? If this is not a serious matter for you, then you wouldn't be reading this article up till here (Smile).

One more thing to understand here is that this journey of going inward is a very personal one and approach towards it varies from person to person. Some may be able to meditate within few days, some may start with Pranayama, some may start with some other approach. There is no wrong or right approach here, it's all about the fact that different people are at different levels of consciousness and do take different starting points. One approach may not fit all. What works for the person may not work for the other. So it takes a little bit of serious effort and some time to find out, what works for you, what route you should take, where should you start? Try various approaches seriously for a couple of months and see what works best for you to raise your Consciousness. If you are serious, then there is no way you won't find a way. You will!

~ Adiguru

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How do I control my Energy? It seems some Dark Energy is always trying to get hold of me. How do I handle that?

I often get this question from many people around me who are consciously walking the spiritual path.

First thing is you need to let go of the notion "my energy". There is no such thing as my energy, your energy, his energy, her energy. Why? When you say "my energy" you are isolating yourself from the energy. It's as if you are saying "me" is different than the "energy", which is never the case, because "you are energy itself", there is no such thing as "me and my energy". Energy should be looked at as a whole, and perception should be holistic. Then you will truly understand energy. Then you will accept the presence of energy. Then you will accept your own presence as energy. Also understand that when you say "my energy" you mean, how you feel, perceive energy through your mind and what effect it is having on your body. Now the active presence of the body itself is because of energy. Body and all it's five sheaths are energy, but it's beyond mind's comprehension, so you talk about it in terms of how it appears to your Mind, not necessarily how it actually exists. The reality of energy is different than your mental perception of energy. Many times when you feel other person's energy, it's not his energy that you actually feel, it's the perception of the "interaction" of you as energy to the other as Energy. So be clear about it. Yes sometimes that interaction will not feel nice to you, and you can say that XYZ is exuberating negative or lower vibrational energy, or ABC place has lower vibrations. So when you say "my energy" you are actually referring to that "interaction" that happens and the "mental perception" phenomenon that takes place.

Now that we are clear about Energy's presence as a Whole, the second thing that you need to let go of is "Control". Energy is holistic, it's whole and you can NEVER have any control over it, whatsoever, especially the way you understand "Control". Why? This whole Universe and all its elements and all life, the whole manifestation is nothing but Energy, including you. When you yourself are Energy, then are you saying you want to control yourself? Then that means some outside force needs to Control energy, but then what is NOT energy? What is outside Energy? What is that outside force? Nothing! Then, in other words, you are saying Energy (I) want to Control Energy (myself). So you are actually saying, you want to DIVIDE energy into two parts, Mischievous or Humble Energy (that needs to be controlled) and Controller Energy (which will control the mischievous one). You see here how your own mind is dividing Unity into Duality, that's how your mind understands everything. Now how can you actually divide energy into Mischievous one, and Controller one? Where will you draw the line, and how? See, that is what mind does all the time, it becomes the thief first and then goes on hunting itself acting as police. And it keeps you in the vicious cycle saying that "oh you are not able to achieve something", so keep on trying, keep on looking at different so-called mental solutions and, keep on working and working and working. It's a useless feat. Entire Universe is within us, we are representing entire Universe as Energy.

Now let's say you understand what energy is, and what mental drama about energy is and you have a holistic view about Energy. So let's see what is meant by "control"? Control, as you understand in life, means "power OVER". It could be power over another person, a group of people, or power over anything.

There are two ways to have power over anyone or anything. One way is through "manipulation", and another way is through "love". For a short period of time, both ways will seem fine, and will give you the same end result. But in longer term you will see that if you took the way of "manipulation" then you will completely lose that "person/thing/energy" whatever that you wanted to have "power over". Because through this way, you are "in control", but you are on the "receiving" end, and that other person/thing/energy is on the giving end. But If you fall in love with someone/something, you won't be hunting "receiving" all the time, you will NOT be on the receiving end, instead, there won't be any "giving" or "receiving" ends. Instead in love, you will be ONE with that person/thing/energy, you will be in UNION, and that's how you will have what you need, in fact, more than what you ever needed. In relationship also, imagine you are utterly in love with your partner, what happens then? Their life, their resources, their functions become part of your life, your resources, and your functions, that's when 1 + 1 becomes 11. But when in the relationship you are manipulating your partner, mentally, emotionally, then why exactly are you doing that? You are doing it so you can get your partner's life, resources, functions available to you when you need. You are foolish, trying to stay on the receiving side, thinking this is the way to get, this is the way to control other. This desire to control breeds "manipulation". If the end goal is to unite the life, resources, and functions, then a better approach is through love, isn't it? Where the other will freely merge with you, and will REVEAL what all they can do, will OPENLY let you use their powers, resources.

Exactly in a similar way, when you want to use the Power of Energy, or Water, Earth, Fire, Air, Ether then don't try to get "power over", instead try to be in Union out of love, be in Oneness out of love, devotion, surrender, and ALL elements and Energy will be at your disposal, then it will Reveal its inherent "secrets" to you, then it will reveal what all can be done through it, then it will reveal how actually it functions, and what all can be done, achieved through it. This is true for Mystics also.  They can either manipulate the elements and sometimes that manipulation, control will work, sometimes it will not, Or they can truly "be one with that element", out of love, devotion, surrender, merge with that element and let that element become part of their existence and reveal "how" it truly functions, how can it be used best, what all can be done, achieved through its proper use. A True Mystic Respects, and Accepts ONENESS with entire Nature/Universe. A True Mystic may use the elements, or energy for the greater cause, but will never abuse them, and even that "usability" is not through manipulation, but through love. In love one is never used by the other, instead one offers oneself to the other freely. Such union and offering are long lasting.

So if you truly want to harness the power of Energy for a good reason, then BE ONE with it, Be in LOVE with it, let it MERGE with you and let it be in Integration with you, and trust me, you will have ALL that you ever wanted, that Energy will give you everything that you ever thought of.

Energy is nothing but Shakti, Shakti is who we truly are. Respect it, Love it, Accept it and let it do the dance for you in the best possible way. If you ever had ANY FEARS from Energy, then understand that your perception, understanding about energy is wrong and that you truly were trying to manipulate it, you were trying to "overpower" it, control it in a childish way. Did it work? I know, it can never work in long term, no matter how hard you try. Instead, it will leave you forever Fearful.

If really power of Energy/Shakti has left you fearful in life, then try to respect, accept and love it for what it is, and if you want to harness its power, then OPEN your HEART, and be ONE with it and you can Embody it in it's most roaring, wild form, without any problems ever.

Fall in love with Shakti. Opening your heart is the key!

Five years back, when I tangibly started noticing the dance of Energy, Shakti in me, I fell in love with it, I was in complete "awe". Though that time, I noticed the "Dark" side of it. Dark doesn't mean bad, Dark simply means Energy/Shakti that grounds you to your Earthly experience as a Body, which dances in your human-ness, which lets you experience all dark moments/faces of your life, which lets you experience life through your own body and it's various functions and all senses, emotions at their peak. When I realized it's wildness through me, I had to surrender out of love. I let it dance until it let me go. Yes, you NEVER ascend until you Embody the Dark Energy first. The more you try to escape it's grounding nature, earthly human experience that it is trying to give you, the more you try to run away towards the "Light or White" Energy, more it will pull you back, more it will try to ground you, more it will try to show you your own wildest, weakest, darkest face. Through inner knowing I let it run it's course for 1.5 years, and finally there came a moment, when it felt as if a switch is turned-off in me, ALL wildness, ferociousness, grounding was gone, instead it was replaced by Light Energy, which was very subtle in nature, which was the True Expression of my Spiritual Self, my Soul. It's the Dark Energy which lets you loose to ascend, it's the Dark energy which initiates the process of Ascension. And one needs to Embody dark first.

Goddess Kali holds Dark Energy in one hand, and Light Energy in another hand. Goddess Kali holds Death in one hand and Life in another hand. And that's what it signifies, that as a human you are the Beholder of Dark and Light both. It signifies that experience Death first in order to Reborn as a New Life again. You need to embody Wild, Ferocious, Ravenous, Ruthless, Grounding Shakti in order to hold Subtle, Compassionate, Tender, Pleasant Shakti. You need to embody BOTH polarities of Shakti. In other words, you need to embody your humanness in order to embody your Divinity.

So yes, when you say that a Dark Energy is trying to get hold of you, it's TRUE. It is trying to get hold of you, it is trying to give you an experience that is needed for your evolution, for your ascension, it is trying to show you the wildest, ugliest, weakest side of you, not to harass you, not to torture you, but only to show what you hide deep down, what you fear the most. So you can come out of it, and get rid of your fears forever, and behold, be the Master of your own Dark side, embody the Dark Energy/Shakti. But most of the time, you try to run from it, you try to escape it, deny it, you fear it, you want to hide that expression of yours, you run for several types of healing for body, mind, emotions and that delays your ascension process. That's all that does. Next time when that Dark Energy tries to get hold of you, calm down, see what it is trying to show you, see what is hidden deep beneath the layers of your mind that it is trying to bring up, rejoice in its presence, accept its functioning and dance in you, and let it do what it is supposed to do. Once you do that, you will be free from an aspect of it that it was trying to show you, you will truly ascend! On the name of Spiritual Journey, you cannot run away from Earthly Human Experience, you cannot run away from the wild side of your own, you cannot run away from bodily temptations, demands, needs, fears you cannot run away from those faces of yours which when coming out you immediately respond with "oh this can't be me, how can I be like this, this is horrible me, I can't handle myself". You can only MASTER all this, by letting yourself go through that experience.

The day Dark Energy is done showing you all that you hide deep within, done giving you experiences that show you your own faces, NEVER EVER AGAIN in life this Dark Energy will try to bound you, ground you, scare you, or do anything at all with you. That means you have integrated everything that you feared within, denied within you have integrated all broken aspects of who you are. You are fearless wholesome Shakti.

~ Adiguru

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Transcendence through Emotions

Yes, you can transcend your human nature, any limitations through your emotions. You have many emotions, Anger, Guilt, Fear, Love and so on, you can pick up any one of the emotion and be absolute "Intense" with it and see what happens. Now you can choose Anger for that matter, but anger may cause physical damage to your body, so you can choose Love instead, and be absolute intense in that state, maintain that state in highest intensity for just a day, and see what changes it brings in you. Having emotions is not a limitation or hurdle that you have to cross, instead, emotions are tools given to us. Just like physical body is a tool to do Sadhana/Tapas and transcend, in a similar way, emotions are tools too, and one can do Sadhana/Tapas on an emotional plane as well. It works.

In many, the emotion of love became highly intense that Bhakti/Devotion arose, which made pathways for Gyan/Jnana/Wisdom/Intellect/Brahmakara Vritti. Bhakti Yoga, and Jnana/Gyan Yoga goes hand in hand and works perfectly. My path was that way, so it was for many others who Realized the Self.

When one pursues the path of Jnana Yoga, without Bhakti/Devotion in place first, then it's nothing but a mental enlightenment, no real transformation takes place in the person/consciousness, instead pride develops over the period of time. Real transformation takes place when "Devotion to Self/Soul/Consciousness/Atma/Divine" has taken roots deeply. Without igniting the fire of Devotion, the fire of Jnana doesn't help anyone.

In order for such a devotion to arise, the logical/rational mind has to loose footing in you, and Faith, Surrender needs to happen. Faith in yourself, and Surrender to life, to something bigger/larger than us, you can call it Divine, Pure Consciousness or Shakti. The Fire of Devotion purifies the Mind/Intellect, so it doesn't work against the life/person, instead, works for it. It kills the mental identities, boundaries, limitations and makes one vulnerable for receiving from Universal Life/Power. This softness, vulnerability is what brings you in the "receiving" position for anything in life, and most of the time mind is scared of this vulnerability, because mind cannot comprehend, it seems foolishness to mind, and it does everything to let it not happen. Mostly people are slave of their mind, not the masters, so they let themselves down in front of their logical/rational mind and pull up their guards against this vulnerability. Important point to understand here is that you cannot invite any experience in life, which is NOT needed for your growth, your evolution, hence trust in Universal Laws is a must, an understanding of Universal Laws is required to successfully end the tussle between logical/rational mind and heart/emotion of love/devotion.

Ignorance is NOT bliss! Ignorance only delays the process for you. Mind's only job is to take you towards your grave, and it will do anything to stop you from going towards bliss, peace, love, Divine, Pure Consciousness, immortality. Mind never wants you to experience that you are not your mind, you are not your body. Now choice is yours! You can surrender to mind, or surrender to life. There are examples of both types of beings, one who surrendered to mind, and ones who surrendered to life, pros and cons of each choice need not be explained much. At times you surrender to mind, but expect an outcome that is tied to the surrender to life, how can it be that way? You want to go to east but all your steps are taken towards west. You are sowing a seed of an Apple tree, how can there be Mangoes tomorrow? Just this much aspect of one's life shows us how much limited mind is, and that its only a tool to help us in a certain fashion, it should never be the Driver of life, it can never be the Driver. You are surrendering to your mind and expecting real evolution, transformation.

If that's what you want, surrender to mind, then that's OK. Be happy with that. There are many lives to live and many bodies to take, if not this life, then in some other one, but one will definitely learn whom should one surrender to. After leaving this body, your Subconscious, Unconscious Mind will be with you, and you will have ample time (probably hundreds/thousands of years) to struggle with the same concept, and arrive at a conclusion and take decision accordingly. It's not something where anyone can push you from outside, it's something that has to happen "internally" within you, based on your choice, your will power. Chosing life is a choice! Chosing to realize one's permanent nature as Pure Consciousness, Shakti, Divine, is a choice! And Emotions are very effective tool to Realize the Self.

~ Adiguru

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Emotional Candy Bazaar

Questioner: I have done a lot for others in life, I have fulfilled all the responsibilities properly and I have given 100% to my spouse, my kids and everyone around me. Despite all that, I feel empty within, I feel I am not loved. I feel empty, incomplete, Why?

Prakriti: Were you ever lost at Candy Bazaar?
Questioner: Not that I remember.

Prakriti: Well, now you are. You are lost at Emotional Candy Bazaar. You were trying to find fulfillment in life through your emotions. You adopted a sense of responsibility and you played with emotions through others. You have an emotional investment in others and now you are seeking a return. Others are not returning you the equal amount of love, kindness and you feel empty. 

See, when you were seeking emotional fulfillment you did stuff for others, in order to spend some good time with them, love them, kindness from them, or something else. Every little pleasure that you looked forward to, was an emotional candy exchange. You felt very happy every time you got one candy and then you looked for more and more. You were seeking fulfillment outside of yourself, it doesn't work that way. Fulfillment, Contentment has to come from within, it happens when awareness arises, consciousness expands. And for that, you have to give up your attachment to all emotional candies. When your emotions are sweet, you call that love candy, when your emotions are bitter, you call it anger, and when there is a change of state, or in between state, you call it anxiety. All these are nothing but Emotional candies and you are lost in that Bazaar (Marketplace). Emotions are Energy in Motion, it turns around every two and half days, in any normal person. So you keep on moving from one shelf (love for example) to another (Guilt or Anger for example). 

Why stay lost? Come out of that Bazaar. You certainly don't want bitter candies like anger, guilt, shame, fear etc. You may want sweet love candy. Let's see what that candy actually is?

What you call love is actually an emotion in you. True love is "Devotion", "Bhakti", where one loses all identities and is ready to die for it. Let the intensity of love in you reach it's peak that Bhakti/Devotion arises. Love someone, something with so much intensity that you are ready to die for it, then certainly you will cross the limitations of love as an emotion and you will truly transcend your nature, behavior, perception and it will open the door of true fulfillment in you. Your logical, rational mind is what prevents you from going into such an intense love, devotion state. A devotee/Bhakta is always content in her/his devotion/love, they never complain that the other is not reciprocating it, may it be a person, thing or God Almighty. Devotees are content always, want nothing, they stay in the state of love and transcend their human nature. Until love as an emotion has transcended to Devotion, it can never provide any fulfillment to you and you will always feel empty, incomplete within and you will look at others to fill the void in you.

Unless this transcendence happens in you, you are an emotional fool lost at Emotional Candy Bazaar. Yeah, I have been there too (Laughs).

~ Adiguru

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1+1=11

When you say, you need a life partner, and you are looking for a relationship, answer this question, WHY? It doesn't matter whether you "need" one or "want" one. Let's not play with those words. So why do you need a life partner, why are you looking for a relationship? Maybe you are single and you do not have one, maybe you are in a relationship and something is missing there. Whether you are already in a relationship or not, let's see on what all planes you are experiencing the "separation". Separation/Distance/Something missing, with or without a partner in life could be felt at multiple levels/planes.

• Physical 
• Mental
• Emotional
• Spiritual/Soul

You might be missing the physical intimacy, emotional intimacy, you may have mental/worldly goals of society, money, kids to achieve, or you may be experiencing spiritual loneliness, in other words, you may have a longing in your Soul. Any or all of this could make you feel you need a "partner or life partner" or you need a union/integration with your partner. This indicates that there is a "need" in you. A "need" indicates that you are NOT whole, you have holes. You are not a complete being in yourself and you are looking for someone, something other than you to complete you, make you whole. This whole philosophy, psychology in itself is incorrect. How? When two incomplete beings come into a partnership, that relationship will be based on "transactions", you give me this, I will give you that. Slowly it will go to the level of "you did not give me this", so " I am not giving you that". Because in relationship based on transactions, there will be "expectations" and whole life will become a pursuit of "trying to fulfill each other's expectations" and there will be a lot of unhappiness in the process, because one can NEVER make the other "whole" and "content", one cannot provide "fulfillment" to the other, instead one will be spent, tortured physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Here I am not saying do not enter into the partnerships, relationships for physical, mental, emotional or other reasons, or need. Do that if you need to, but DO NOT EXPECT any kind of permanent fulfillment from such pursuits. That very expectation will become the cause of unhappiness in you and you will end up blaming the other. The problem is not such transactional partnerships, relationships, the problem is your "attachment to your expectations" from them. Some people do have a very good understanding of the nature of such relationships and they do fine, they may or may not be walking the spiritual path, may not have turned inward, but they run their transaction based business/relationships in a healthy way. They acknowledge the receiving and give generously to the other, without having many expectations. But such people are rare. No matter how much mental or worldly a relationship may be with the other person or business/company or anything, sooner or later there will be Emotional Attachment, which will create unhappiness due to unfulfilled desires. 

If you are entering or are already into any physical, emotional, mental relationship, set your expectations right and try to move the level/plane of that relationship to "Spiritual". This cannot be done by one person alone, it has to be mutual between the two. Moving the relationship to Spiritual Plane will help you see "your reflection" in your partner, and see "their reflection" in you, it will help you fill the holes in you, it will help you become "whole" together. You may have relationships with different people for different needs/reasons, you can use each one of them to see your reflection and fix yourself. That is the REAL purpose of having any kind of relationships in this world/life. Yes, there can be hundreds of "unreal/worldly" purposes to relationships and you may end up beating yourself for whole life, you can kill as much time/life as you want, on the name of such "unreal" purposes, or chose differently, right now. I am not saying "leave" everything, I am saying "shift/move" your focus/priority from unreal purposes to the real purpose. You may stay outward all life trying to fulfill the void in you through other people and on the name of love, sex, emotional intimacy, but it's a pursuit designed to FAIL always if you do not use it to grow spiritually. You can read more about the Reflection process here. Your partner may or may not be ready for any Spiritual understanding, but you can always make it that way for yourself, to grow spiritually, there is no need to wait, life is short and precious. Everyone is running at a different timeline, and that's OK. Not all lemons will be ripe on the lemon tree the same day.

When a person becomes "whole" they do not NEED any partner, doesn't mean they can't have one, but then partnership/relationship is NOT based on need. When there is no need, there are no desires/expectations attached. It's more like sharing whole existence with each other. There is no "personal love" in such relationship instead the foundation is laid on "Universal Love". There are no transactions happening with each other, there is just being Bliss, Peace, and Divine Love. These two people do not exist as two separate entities, they are ONE entity in Union with the ONE/DIVINE. When two such "whole" people enter into such a Divine Partnership, they do not become two whole people, because there is just "one whole/wholeness", there are no two persons/people entering into the relationship, there is wholeness working, living, breathing and is in an embrace with itself. 

Perfect Romance!

In this case, the equation is not 1+1, which results in two. Instead, 1 is in Union/Overlap with 1 and stays as 1 and could become 11 to fulfill Cosmic Will.

~ Adiguru

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Death of Experiencer - How do I drop my mind/ego/aham?

We have Brain (a physical organ in the skull) which has "sensory centers (bundle of neurons)" which are responsible for taking inputs from our 5 senses. Our body is inert, it cannot enjoy or suffer from those sensory centers like the body cannot eat for itself, the body cannot walk anywhere for itself. Then who drives this body, who enjoys or suffers through those sensory centers? That's the PSYCHOLOGICAL HUMAN (The Experiencer) who does that. This Psychological Human has 4 parts. Manas (Sensory Centers Interface), Buddhi (Intellectual Interface), Chitta (Space/Subtle Interface) and Aham (Personality Interface). Notice that the word I am using here is INTERFACE. Why am I calling it Interface? Because these 4 parts are NOT physical body/organs in us, they are PSYCHOLOGICAL Parts/Tools given to us for proper functioning in life as a Human. 

Since we are born, these Interfaces are functioning, gathering data, through the physical body and the world. Physical body/organs are like Computer Firmware or Hardware. But Firmware/Hardware will not use its high-speed capabilities or faster processor for its own use. And in order, for humans to use it, we need software. The software is that INTERFACE between Human and Computer Hardware. Exactly in the same way this PSYCHOLOGICAL HUMAN is the Interface between the body and the World. And this Psychological Human consists of "Self Learning, Artificial Intelligence" Algorithms/Capabilities in it. So by using this body, and interacting with other people's psychological human and their physical body and this whole world full of tangible, intangible stuff, this Psychological Human keeps on "Self-Learning". 

As I said, this Psychological Human has 4 parts in its own body, Manas, Buddhi, Chitta, Aham. Using Manas part, this Psychological Human keeps recording SENSORY inputs like hot, cold, different smells, different scenes, sounds etc. This gathering of sensory related information happens after a child is born and is less than 3 years of age, slowly using this very same center, Likes and Dislikes starts building, and based on likes and dislikes it develops or breaks Relationships, this means Intellect/Buddhi started functioning and taking control. 

Buddhi/Intellect, provides "POWER OF DISCRIMINATION (VIVEK in Hindi)", FUNCTION to this Psychological Human. So through Manas Interface Psychological Human knows Sensory inputs, but which one is the pain (hot for example) and which one is the pleasure (cold for example), that Discrimination comes from Buddhi/Intellect. Which one is good, which one is bad, which one is safe, which one is a danger, all that comes from Intellect/Buddhi. That's what it means when we say "INTELLECT DIVIDES". Yes! it keeps on dividing everything as per the Laws of this Universe into DUALITY. And it's a double-edged sword. Why is it a Double-Edged Sword? Let's see. So Intellect could be SHARP, we refer to it as Sharp, when Power Of Discrimination has WORKED in the FAVOR of our Body and Life around us. But as it's a Double Edged sword, sometimes it starts working AGAINST the body and life. How? For some people Drugs, too much Alcohol are GOOD, PLEASURE, for some working in Gym breathlessly is GOOD, For some having a Wife is Good, for some having a wife AND 3-4 girlfriends is GOOD. For some speaking Truth is Good, for some lying and considering themselves CLEVER, SMART is good. So you see, this Power of Discrimination works differently for everyone. In some, it stays SHARP enough and while dividing everything into duality it ALWAYS considers Universal Laws, like Karma, Cause, and Effect, and that way it doesn't become harmful for the body and so-called life of that Psychological Human instead takes that Psychological Human on the Journey of Completion, Spiritual Journey. Another important thing to understand here is that good/bad, safety/danger are very relative terms, means imagine a poor kid living among gangsters, for him lying and cheating could be the only ways of survival, will you call it good or bad? So ANY DIVISION done by Intellect is ONLY relative, it has no Absolute meaning. All our likes and dislikes truly are very irrelevant. 

Now Chitta is the Substratum where Vrittis (Psychological PATTERNS) keeps on arising and subsiding. Psychological Patterns are Sensory Inputs+Intellect Division+Emotions. For example, a Vritti is - Fear from water/swimming. Now one may not have faced anything in this life to cause such a Vritti, but he may have died by drowning in some past life, or may have an accidental drowning, not necessarily death. Vrittis have STRONG EMOTION attached to it always. That's why Vrittis are very STRONG to Break. These Vrittis in people drives them one way or the other. Because Vrittis will cause one to DESIRE accordingly. A person may never live around water if he is fearful of it, a person may desire to build a fort around him for his safety. So Vrittis are Psychological Patterns from this life, as well as ALL of past lives. To walk the Spiritual Path, to try to know THAT/Brahm is a Vritti too, and is the HIGHEST QUALITY of Vritti, which is why it is called as "BRAHMAKARA Vritti". Now this Vritti may arise due to Suffering or Faith based "Renunciation" in this life, or due to past life Tapas/Sadhana, but it doesn't matter, what matters is how it shapes, drives anyone's life. WAREHOUSE of ALL Past and Present Life's UNUSED/HIDDEN Vrittis is UNCONSCIOUS MIND, which is accessible only in Deep Sleep. If a Vritti is from Past Life, we call it as SANSKARA (Seed of Karma, which hasn't got a chance to be Tree yet), and if a Vritti is from present life situations, we call it KARMA, specially Prarabdha (Present), or Agami (Future Karma). Means that Psychological Patterns may find 100% fulfillment, completion in the present life, or may find it in Next life. For example, Intention to commit a crime is a Vritti, it's a strong psychological pattern with a mix of strong emotion, it could have been due to past life's karma, or it could have been due to present life situations, and it may find expression, fulfillment in this life or the next one. 

Now comes the last but MOST important part of the Psychological Human, which is AHAM. I did some Internet-based research about the use of word MIND and EGO and their Context in the English Language. So BEFORE Carl Jung and his work became really famous, the word MIND was being used in Spiritual Translations of Original Sanskrit texts. And MIND actually refers to ALL 4 Parts; Manas, Buddhi, Chitta, Aham. But since Carl Jung explained different Personality types using Patanjali's Yoga Sutras, he used the word EGO to refer to the Personality. Ego actually refers to Personality or Personal Identity, it is still not a straight, perfect English translation of the Sanskrit word Aham. But in a loose manner, we can consider that Aham means Ego. But the precise translation of Ego to Hindi word is "AHANKAR". Which is one of the Qualities of Aham, but is NOT Aham. Precise, direct translation of AHANKAR in English is PRIDE/VANITY, which you see is a Quality of Ego. So let's talk about Aham and refrain from using the word Ego and Mind to avoid any confusion.  

AHAM - These days Strategy based Online Gaming is highly famous, and tons of kids and even adults are playing nonstop around the world. One important thing to notice in those strategy based online games is that before you start playing, you have to Create your AVATAR/CHARACTER/FAKE YOU. A particular type of personality, powers, body, mind creature who will be YOUR PLAYER or YOU in the Game. Who will REPRESENT you in that game? So players are given the choice of male, female body, particular race/ethnicity body, hair styles, clothes, and choice of weapons, powers like teleporting, transmutation, thought reading, electric power, water power and this and that. Everything basically that makes a strong character/avatar/personality type for a Player. So players build their Avatars based on their knowledge about the game, playground (if it's forest, or underwater etc), and their choices about body types, hairstyles, clothes and their knowledge/ease of use of weapons. Yea my son is growing up in Information Age, so I know a lot about this Online Gaming Industry. Now we see that these games are ADDICTIVE. And what is the Addiction? That Addiction comes from an emotional attachment to that Avatar/Character. They keep playing thinking oh I died (my Avatar/Character) died, this time, let me increase it's life, it's power, let me make sure it doesn't die this time and cross this level of a game. They feel bad, sad when their Avatar dies in the game, feeling as if they themselves have died. These games are taking advantage of PSYCHOLOGICAL HUMANS in us, and they are the replica of Real Life. While playing, players start feeling emotional about their Avatar/Character and start behaving accordingly. It's a psychological conditioning. 

Now based on the inputs and functions of Manas, Buddhi, and Chitta this AHAM starts developing itself (Self Learning). Aham starts creating Avatar/Fake You/Personality one after the other. You have MANY personalities/faces and that BUNDLE of Personalities is called as AHAM. You could be an Introvert for yourself or some people, but in office, you could appear Ambivert or Extrovert. You could be one way in front of your mom and the other way in front of your wife. You could be one way in private and another way in front of the world. So let's say all these Avatars/Personality types are PUPPETS. Now who or what is managing the Puppet show? AHAM. AHAM is the Control/Command Center for ALL different types of Personalities in you. AHAM is the one which ACTIVATES or DEACTIVATES different personalities at different times. Now understand that Every Personality in you will have a certain amount of PRIDE/VANITY which has been extracted as a result of different ACHIEVEMENTS in Life. The one who is financially rich may have PRIDE for his/her achievement of money, and in front of his friends he/she may end up displaying that, but in front of his "even richer" friend/family member/anyone he may seem VERY HUMBLE, the Pride may be hidden, means AHAM Activated the HUMBLE Personality in him given the situation. So Aham activates/deactivates personalities according to the situations and the CONTROLLER of ALL Personalities is ANOTHER Personality in AHAM. So layer after layer after layer keeps on developing in that Psychological Human and this AHAM becomes very STRONG. 

Whole life the REAL YOU stays hidden beneath the layers (different personalities/fake you) of AHAM. And that's the story of life for most people. Sad it is though. 

DROPPING MIND - 

Now when Jnani/Gyani/Self-realized one talks about dropping MIND, they are talking about AHAM. Now this word "dropping" is another interesting confusing word which is always MISUNDERSTOOD. 

So now if we say Dropping mind means "Killing/Leaving/Abandoning" Aham/All Personality types, then HOW IS IT POSSIBLE? It's NOT Physical, it's the part/domain of Psychological Human, it's Intangible. You don't know HOW YOU ARE HOLDING SOMETHING, and then HOW CAN YOU DROP IT? If you have to Kill/Leave/Abandon/Drop ALL your personality types, then should you go one by one, or what should you do? 

In order to understand that, you need to understand TWO Steps here. First, you need to understand, HOW YOU ARE HOLDING AHAM? Then you need to understand WHAT IS THE MEANING OF DROPPING AHAM/MIND?

Let's see HOW YOU ARE HOLDING AHAM? So that Controller Type of Main Personality type holds ALL other personality types in you. Each personality gives you a certain type of HAPPINESS/PLEASURE/FEEL GOOD Factor. And being able to play all roles through different personality types is what gives you Great Satisfaction. So in bits and pieces, YOU ARE ATTACHED to different personality types and you have a CEMENTED ATTACHMENT with that MAIN Controller personality type. 

Now is it WRONG to be one way or the other in different situations? Is it wrong to have all these personality types? How come it is wrong for me to be Ambivert in office, and Introvert otherwise? How is it wrong for me to be a worldly person for some, and Jnani/Gyani for some? How is it wrong for me to show emotional love to someone and a cold shoulder to other? If the ENTIRE FUNCTION of AHAM is wrong/useless, then why the heck we came packaged with that?

No! There is NOTHING wrong with AHAM. It should NOT be killed/abandoned/dropped for its use. Do I, after being Self Realized not have a properly functioning AHAM? Yes, I do. That's how I am able to behave one way or the other as per the situations, people, and the environment around me. THEN WHAT IS WRONG? WHAT NEEDS to be DROPPED? or WHAT IS MEANT BY DROPPING MIND/AHAM?

So you understand that you are holding AHAM through your ATTACHMENT to it. So that ATTACHMENT needs to be Dropped. (Silence!). Yes!

Now, what causes that Attachment? DERIVING Pleasure/fake happiness/Pride is the CAUSE of ATTACHMENT in us. Stop taking Pride through various personality types in you, Stop deriving pleasure from all those, and your Attachment will be dissolved. AHAM is not the cause of suffering, YOUR ATTACHMENT to AHAM is the cause of suffering. Like one's kid or dog or relationship or anything is not the CAUSE of a problem, but the underlying ATTACHMENT to them is the CAUSE of problems/suffering/blockage. One may keep on playing online games 24 by 7, or may keep on drinking alcohol endlessly, or may keep on feeling fearful or sulking in life, is that online game a problem, is alcohol a problem, NO... It's one's attachment that is the problem and root cause of suffering. 

How did that Attachment got developed? Through DERIVING Pleasure/Fake Happiness from that. 

So only your attachment needs to be dropped which you have with your mind/aham by STOPPING to take Pride/Pleasure/Fake Happiness from the Pursuits of your mind. And that's what is meant by "dropping mind". The moment you get a feeling of Pride or Pleasure, or that Fake/temporary Happiness comes in you, STOP right there, and talk to yourself, explain yourself that it's USELESS. 

Now WHO is taking that Pride/Pleasure from the pursuits of mind? ANOTHER FAKE PERSONALITY CREATED BY MIND/AHAM. NOT YOU! NOT THE REAL YOU. And this is the most important point to understand and can only be understood through the use of BUDDHI/INTELLECT, which puts VIVEK/Power of Discrimination into use, and says, BABY, it's NOT YOU who is deriving pain/pleasure from anything in life, it's that FAKE personality or AHAM deriving it, so DROP your attachment to it, and you should be fine. This exact display/use of Buddhi/Intellect when keeps happening continuously gives rise to BRAHMAKARA Vritti, which is to finally KNOW/Directly Experience the TRUTH/DIVINE. Yes Intellect Divides everything into DUALITY, but yes the BEST division it does is by telling us "WHO AM I"? and WHO IS FAKE I/ME? Every time we hit the Fake I, it tells us. That's why "Power of Discrimination" is the BEST POWER in us. And using this power we can kill The Experiencer, and this is how we drop mind/aham/ego.

Next >> What happens when The Experiencer is dead when mind/ego/aham is dropped?

~ Adiguru

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