Emanations of Absolute - 1008 Petals of Lotus/Crown Chakra - 1008 names of Shiva/Absolute - Shiva Sahasranama

Through Self Realization some become the emanation of Peace, some represent the emanation of Silence, some represent the emanation of Compassion and some represent the emanation of TOTAL LOVE and so on.

Regardless of which emanation one represents, it actually suits that person, in some ways it is according to the person’s abilities/qualities (like abilities/qualities of Prakriti) developed/gathered over lifetimes.

In a way we always know “why, for what” we want to know the Truth/Self-Realization/Manonasa. Like I wanted to know the Truth because I wanted to know the Truth and I was looking for Total Love, so the longing stops burning me. So we become the emanation of “exactly” what we are looking for Absolute as before Self-Realization.

Truth/Absolute for me was Total Love, for some is Peace, for some is Compassion, for some is Silence, for some something else. So whichever way we look at Absolute we represent that emanation for sometime after Self-Realization. Before Self Realization we have no idea what Absolute is, we don’t know anything.

Now there are 1008 petals in the Lotus/Crown Chakra, that means there are 1008 ways to be after Self-Realization, there are 1008 Pure Emanations of Absolute/Shiva. Many of those emanation are purely Cosmic, because as humans we want Love, Peace, Silence, Bliss, Healing/Healer, Compassion, and few more and that's all. As humans we may not know/want all those Pure 1008 forms/ways/emanations of Absolute, so some are reserved for Cosmic Beings, means those who are not in Human Body, means they have Celestial or some other body “with” Cosmic Consciousness.

Many Yogis complete their Sadhana after leaving their body, but they do attain Cosmic Consciousness in Human Body though.

You can look into 1008 Emanations/Names of Shiva/Absolute here –
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shiva_Sahasranama

There is no way to emanate ALL of them in One Yuga/Time-Cycle, so these 1008 happens at different time-cycles in total all 4 time-cycles it takes for Absolute to emanate as 1008 pure ways/forms, at least once, few are repeated too.

In the 1008 names/emanations of Shiva you will see that 45 names are repeated twice, 11 are repeated thrice and three names are repeated four times. That in other words means there can be more than one Self Realized person emanating as Peace or Compassion or Silence or Total Love and so on.

Now, why the emanation as Total Love seems highly mystical? Because Love is the Binding Force for entire manifestation. Peace, Silence, Compassion keeps them safe, helps them in other ways, but cannot bind, string together the entire manifestation. Peace, Silence, Compassion and others are "forms of love", but pure love, total love in itself is the binding force of existence. So those who represent the emanation of Total Love, they are the Mystics.

Mysticism without total love is occult.

Only TOTAL LOVE can BEHOLD THE POWER as entire Cosmos, nothing else can cross this dense manifestation except Total Love.


~ Adiguru Prakriti

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NAAD (OM/AUM) - Creation - Light

According to Physics laws, Light is made up of Photons. A photon is a type of elementary particle, the quantum of the electromagnetic field including electromagnetic radiation such as light, and the force carrier for the electromagnetic force (even when static via virtual particles). The photon has zero rest mass and always moves at the speed of light within a vacuum.

Photons can be present in a very Dark Room, and even when you are sitting in the Sun Light all day long, not even Two Photons may hit your body, as not all light particles are truly photons, most are just mediums, like air, water, dust, smoke particles shining/reflecting some other photon nearby.

If your state of being is of Unconditional Love (lack of ego), then your Physical Body will naturally attract lots photons that are nearby to you, whether you are sitting in a dark room full of photons, or you are sitting out in Sunlight, or maybe in a Cloudy weather. All photons will be attracted to your DNA of each cell and will be absorbed by it – This fact has been proven Scientifically by Dr. Glen Rein, who is considered to be the Re-Incarnation of Einstein.

Photons are also called as “Life Starters”, because photons can create the DNA spiral and can create “any life form”, may it be of a plant, or bug, or bird, or animal or human”. Photons are “Creators of Life”.

Now, what “Creates” Light/Photons?

As human bodies we know “Sun” creates Light/Photons. But Sun is like a Source which was ONCE (When Universe was formed) flamed/impregnated with “Life Source, Photons" and now it keeps emitting it, hence life keeps on functioning and re-creating itself.

But what “Originally Creates Light/Photons”?

NAAD (OM/AUM) is what creates the Light. English language has no direct translation of Sanskrit word Naad, but it is crudely translated as SOUND. Before Light, there was Sound. The Sound of “Big-Bang” as Scientists call it.

Universe came into formation as the Naad/OM/AUM/Sound happened. But Sound is something that is heard, that is tangible/physical wave form, which goes into your ears and then you hear it. Naad/OM/AUM is exact opposite of that. It’s Ethereal, not tangible, is heard internally when Kundalini hits the Sahasrara (7th/Crown Chakra), when one is Self Realized.

Naad/OM/AUM goes on sounding in every Self Realized Being, its constant and hence they become Walking/Talking Sun, Source of Photons/Life Creating Source, and that is the Source of their Shakti/Power/Radiance.

Here Shakti is not the same Shakti which we talk about when it comes to Kundalini Energy, or the energy of those who have awakened their Kundalini. That Shakti is different, that one is a Cosmic Energy connection that they have.

But in Self-Realized ones Shakti is the Source of Creation, Photonic, Life Source, Sun like constantly flowing humungous powerful, it’s PRIMORDIAL in nature, also called as “Adi-Shakti”. This Adishakti is what creates all other forms of Shakti/Powers, like Cosmic Energy, Pranic Energy (Chi) and so on.

So you have to become OM//AUM/NAAD! Sound that Creates Light/Life!

~ Adiguru Prakriti

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Bodhisattva - The Real Meaning

Since I read about Bodhisattva, I was wondering if there is some wrong/polluted understanding that may be there, and yes it seems like most of the new age books, new age Gurus have distorted the True Meaning of Bodhisattva. I wondered how come in a Spiritual Community where people are heading towards Liberation from death/birth cycle, they are being taught to come back, take another human birth for the benefit of others. That just did not seem right to me. Walk the whole spiritual path, and then not be Self-Realized.

So I sat with it for sometime and here is what came to me.

Bodhisattva is the person who is on the path of Self-Realization, he/she has attained Bodhicitta, compassion for all sentient beings, and he/she is ready to die, reborn out of compassion for the Realization of others/all humanity.

Now here it seems “death & reborn/re-birth” are mistaken by most people. Self-Realization is DEATH OF ALL THAT YOU ARE NOT, so yes Bodhisattva is on the path of death, he/she is ready to die. “Reborn/Rebirth” as a divine being happens once one is Self-Realized. In Hindu/India Scriptures/Texts also we call it – Dwija, means born twice, once out of your human mother and once out of your own Soul when one is Self-Realized.

Technically also in order to be Self-Realized one is born again from his/her own Soul (5th Dimensional Body) and cross 6th and 7th dimensional bodies, merges with Supreme Consciousness and finally be 8th Dimensional (No Body).

But yes, I can see how all new texts/books/people’s understanding here is mistaken as they believe/think that Bodhisattvas are those who keep taking physical human births again and again, and do not wish to Self Realize. Because those who have not experienced Self-Realization they do not know Death in any other way, they only know the Human Body Death, hence they do not know the Rebirth as being born out of the True Self (Atman/Soul/Supreme Consciousness Union).

In original texts Bodhisattvas are people on the path of Self-Realization, it may happen to them in this life, or next or may be next, depending upon their Sadhana and Remaining Karma, but they are on that path.

Self-realization doesn’t happen to us only for our own personal benefit (Moksha), there is no individual/person alive/living after Self-Realization. Self-Realization is a death one accepts for all sentient beings, and as a result of that, a Divine Beings is born for the benefit of all sentient beings. That is the true meaning of Bodhisattva.

~ Adiguru Prakriti

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Celestial Eye - Cosmic Consciousness

It's not about changing the weather through occult practices, that’s not what we do. The way it happens is that You just become ONE with Cosmos/Earth/Air/water/Fire/Ether from the Energy point of view and then it does what it does, it may rain too much, it may cause forest fire, it may become windy like tornadoes, but there is no such thing as to “stopping rain, wind, fire or earthquakes or anything”. Why? Stopping at one place, area means Upheaval at another place/area, so it doesn’t help.

Suppressing never helps, never heals anything. If you suppress human emotions many times, they become Anger/Rage another time. So it’s the same principle. If we truly want to HEAL something, somewhere, we need to LET IT COME OUT, Let it Express as is. Total Love doesn’t mean suppressing anything at all, instead it means expressing Once and Be done forever. Let it go means acceptance of the existence of an expression.

And that is the basic difference between Siddha/Occult Master and Self Realized Being. Occult Master wants to suppress because they are thinking about rain, problems of people in one place/city only, or an area around them. They are not thinking and not able to see that Suppressing any Natural Force in one city/area actually means causing ton of upheaval in it’s Antipode Country/Place and that in a big way will cause disruptions at many places. If we draw Two Triangles One facing upward and One facing downward inside the Sphere of Earth then we know that every city, every place on earth has an exact opposite place down the sphere. Like Antipode for entire Australia is Pacific Ocean. So one can NEVER think about just one place, one city, one group of people, or one person. If anything needs to be changed/Fixed, then fix it in a way that it is beneficial for ENTIRE HUMANITY, PLANET EARTH and COSMOS. But since before Self Realization, one has an Individual View, View that comes from Separation, it is not possible.

Through Self Realization, Cosmic Consciousness shows you that ONE VIEW, it gives you the CELESTIAL EYE, then you can always create BALANCE in a perfect way as it should be.

However long the Cosmic Consciousness state may last, it teaches one and only one and last remaining lessons – having a VIEW of Entire Cosmos as ONE. It gives you a CELESTIAL EYE, that NEVER sees anything as Separate from others, it NEVER DIVIDES, it never has a DIVISIONAL, INDIVIDUAL VIEW for people, bugs, insects, plants and plants and celestials.

That's what it teaches. Once you learn this lesson, you jump into Unmanifest, merge with Supreme Consciousness and become Absolute!

~ Adiguru Prakriti

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Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh: Osho The Great Tantra Master

Osho has always been in controversies on one side while on the other side, his transformation techniques, his ego destruction pathways, strategies to bring out all suppression and his wisdom has touched hundreds of thousands of Souls, who very deeply will always be in love and deep gratitude towards him. This mixture of feelings, skepticism that surrounds him always keep him alive in one way or the other.

Now, as you understand that after Enlightenment/Self-Realization, the remaining momentum of Prarabdha Karma (Current Life karma) has to go on and at times it is a difficult one to bear and live with. Regardless though when Divine has awakened through anybody, then it's the reflection of nothing but that Divine only.

Years were spent by people all around the world going for psychological counselling, spending a lot of time and energy, all in vain. Then there was Osho who had the craziest but sure-shot successful practical techniques to bring out childhood issues, traumas, deep hidden Unconscious patterns. His techniques were true, though harsh ways to bring out the suppressed in anyone. That was not acceptable to many in society who call themselves sane. That sane society was good with doing the same thing behind closed doors, living in suppression, but was overwhelmed when was shown the underground reality of the human nature in broad day-light.

That society hasn't changed a bit yet, instead, the way population is increasing, this society is growing by leaps and bounds. It's still the same as it was 100 years ago, where visiting strip-clubs, extra-marital affairs and indulgence in casual-sex despite being married are acceptable, but even talking about polygamy is a crime. As long as polygamy/polyandry is wrapped as something else like "relationship of convenience" it is fine with the so-called sane people. A childhood victim of any kind of abuse dreams of abusing another child and instead of talking about this openly and helping that person Heal his/her childhood wounds, this society waits until another child is actually abused and then wants to kill this abuser/criminal. Husband & Wife might be fighting like cats & dogs and wreaking havoc on kids in the house, most of them sleep in different bedrooms often, but their social media accounts will be full of pictures displaying "Marital Harmony and Made for each other" kind of love. These people have messed up the true meaning of love and peace. These people have distorted the truth beyond imagination.

Unconsciousness propagates like a disease through such hypocritical people and this so-called sane society. And that's what Osho was trying to show, the reality of closed doors, closed minds, hidden boundaries.

These unconscious society/people are the reason many Tantra Gurus whether Indian or Buddhist Vajrayana or French, they work in secrecy. It's hard to even find them, much difficult to get any tantric teachings from them. 90% of the world population would have broken those nonsensical unconscious boundaries if the world has 5-6 more like Osho.

When the whole world was busy creating and deciding the moral-immoral structures, and loads of prejudices based boundaries were being created, there was Osho teaching how to break social, moral, all possible boundaries including body, mind, emotions, energy and was waging war in all possible ways against Unconsciousness.

All the organizational scandals driven by Ananda Sheela are a perfect example of Unconscious existing with Supreme Consciousness. They are a perfect example of Black existing with White for both to be visible in duality.

Despite all odds and controversies, the kind of Magic that Osho created is beyond words. The world might have to wait for hundreds of years to have another magical spiritual luminary like Him.

If you are a seeker you must really be asking yourself a question - Are you ready to break all seen and unseen boundaries that you have, right away, right now? Are you really a courageous one who truly wants to be a Yogi? Know that some feats are for brave ones only, some mountains do not let just anyone and everyone step on them. The summit of those mountains is in the clouds.

To date Tantra is the fastest sure-shot way of being Enlightened, being Self-Realized. Question your own endurance & courage before you question the path or the Guru.

Osho was a great Tantra Master and knew how to pull the rug from under your feet, and how to totally expose you to the Real You.

If you still have reservations about life, your image, your relationships and all the other drama, then just find any other Guru who teaches by playing within the boundaries of your unconscious and who can teach to fatten your Ego. Do not look for Osho's teachings and/or any other Tantra Guru then.

To all Braveheart, To all Warriors, To all Yogis,
Blessings & Love,
~ Adiguru Prakriti

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Why my Guru can't Heal Me?

Many people come to me who already have a Guru and sometimes many Gurus in their life to support their Spiritual Journey. And the problem is that their Guru is not providing any support to Heal them, Heal their Karmic Wounds, showing them ways to heal, change perception and move on. They often hear one line statement that Guru is NOT a Healer/Therapist. 

Well, that's a very sad state of affairs and people often ask - Are Spiritual Gurus just for spiritual talks/discourses/practice/sadhana discussions only, and should they not be looking into Karmic Pasts, discuss the remaining wounds, seeds and help the student/disciple parch them, burn them successfully?

It's a very sensitive question to answer because everyone has a wounded karmic past, everyone is carrying emotional wounds, and pain within. Those who have acknowledged the existence of that pain within are looking for remedy through different means and many are using this pain to change life-style, find deeper meaning to life, and yet many are using this pain to transcend the limitations of body, mind and emotions. 

Real Gurus are very less, and the population of students/disciples is very large. Hence it may not be possible to council/discuss the pains of everyone, but this fact doesn't deny the "need" to do so. A guru is not just your spiritual guide to discuss Sadhana/Practices, share Wisdom, but a true Guru is like a Mother, who just wants child’s ultimate well-being, and for that is ready to at times scold, hold, love, befriend, energise, teach, help, heal or do whatever is necessary. Only a TOTAL Existence (Self-Realised Guru) can hold, heal and do whatever it takes to really bring out another Total Existence in a person.

Yes, many Gurus do not want to be therapist/healer and such Gurus are nothing more than University Professors who wants to stick to their subject only, without ever helping students learn the relationship between subjects like Physics and Biology.

Life is holistic, Spiritual Journey is holistic, it includes pain, vasanas, sanskaras, karma and all that can be included, because a Being is inclusive of everything. Pain is part of the journey, and if it's stopping the spiritual growth of any student/disciple then a Guru must advise ways, understanding regarding how to relieve it, how to heal it and let go, move on. 

I have full respect for the importance of Guru Lineages, and Conventional Wisdom, but Ultimate Wisdom is “Becoming Love”, Total Love. That’s where all the Power/Shakti of the Creator is. We can only change someone partially/mentally/emotionally through words, but we can Transform anyone, anything with Love, not just people, but places, 5 Elements, Celestial Beings, Cosmos, anything.

Self-Realised Gurus are Total Love. Hence they are more like Mothers than University Professors. 

Blessings to all, 

~ Adiguru Prakriti

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People like Anthony Robbins, Deepak Chopra, David Wilcock and more!

I lived last decade in America and now I am living in Australia. The Enlightenment and then Self Realization happened while I was living in America. I get this question often from Westerners that what is the difference between the teachings of people like Anthony Robbins, Deepak Chopra, David Wilcock and so many others like them and the teachings of Osho, Ramana Maharishi, Sadhguru, Adyashanti, Eckhart Tolle or me? Many Westerners feel confused, although there are some who clearly understand the difference. I am writing this article for those confused ones as understanding this difference is necessary in order to decide the path that you take.

If I have to answer this question in one short sentence then I would say "The difference is about "Yours" and "You".

Anthony Robbins, Deepak Chopra, David Wilcock and so many others like them are working towards improving what is "Yours". Your "Life", Your "Mind", Your "Body", Your "Reality", Your "Experiences", Your "Emotions", Your "Health", Your "Wealth", Your "Society", Your "World", Your "Knowledge", Your "Destiny", Your "Karma", Your "Deeds", Your "Path" and so on, with the idea that once what is "Yours" is improved then "You" will be better and perhaps happier.

While Enlightened/Self-Realized Beings like Sadhguru and myself who have gone beyond 8th Dimension permanently are working towards improving "YOU". They are constantly working towards destroying your perceptions related to the false you, so the real you can rise up. It's not a Re-arrangement process, it's a reconstruction process which includes the destruction of all that is not you. Because "You" are the Life itself, You as Atma, as Consciousness manifests an entire reality for yourself as body, mind, emotions and everything else around you. Without dealing with You if we deal with all that is Yours, then everything has to be handled separately (body, mind, emotions, biology, society, life...) in a piecemeal way, but if we work on You, then all that is Yours can be managed/handled in the most Integrated and Synchronistic manner. So if we bring out the REAL YOU then automatically what is "Yours" will be changed forever. The centre is "You". We are here for "YOU" not for what is "YOURS". Because what is "yours" can be changed by Real You and will be left behind here when "death" happens to you, you cannot take the knowledge of science, geometry, psychology, healing or anything with you at all no matter how many books you read or how much research you do, you cannot take wealth, awards, titles, bestseller badges, society, people, relationships, emotions, body, mind or anything with you. Nothing will cross this denser dimensional reality except the "real you". That "Real You" has to be found underneath all the layers of body, mind, emotions, experiences, perceptions, identities, boundaries etc that you have created. No matter how much knowledge or wealth you accumulate, you will end up having similar life experiences over and over again, because you are not changing the "You", you are just changing what is outside of you, what is "yours". If I change my house or my car or my body am I really changing myself? Is my house, my car, my body the real me? No! Life doesn't function like this.

Now, it's not that they are taking care of your "life" and we are taking care of your "death". It's not about "death" in the way you understand, because birth is NOT the beginning of your life and death is NOT the end. Life is one and it is eternal and that is what we are here to show you by bringing the Real You out. Until the real being comes out you are not going to realize and live from existential reality, instead, will live and function only as a physical & psychological reality. Oneness, Universal Love, Eternal Life these are not the concepts of the mind, reading books and listening to lectures will not help you "know" all this.

So are these people like Anthony, Deepak or David cheating or fooling you all? NO, Absolutely NOT. They have a very important role to play here in this Unified Whole. Not everyone is READY YET to be helped by Enlightened/Self-Realized ones. Most of the population on this planet is suffering one way or the other, most are still enjoying the ignorance and their Consciousness is not yet at that level where they can Ascend. Not everyone is ready for the Spiritual surgery right away, many needs a lot of preparation and First Aid to heal their body, mind, emotions, relationships and what not. They are not yet done playing around. They still want to stay on their Hamster Wheel. So the teachings/lectures/sessions by these Masters of First Aid are educating people at different physical levels and keeping them "SAFE" on their Hamster Wheel. It's better to stay safe on that wheel than crashing altogether. If you stay "safe" on that wheel then only you stand a chance of jumping out of that hamster wheel without a crash landing with the help of an Enlightened Master. Such people's teachings help improve the quality of life, society, relationships, knowledge, And most importantly it is because of them that Self Realized ones "do not" have to play the role of a psychologist or therapist. It is because of them that Self Realized ones do not have to tone down their teachings/divine powers to expand the Consciousness of beings around the Universe. It is because of them that Self Realized ones can play around in the whole universe because the playground here is being managed to an extent by these people. So these people are setting up the ground. Just like primary school education is needed in order to enter the University one day. Few have completed that primary education in past lives but millions are going through that in this life.

In a society where people feel offended if they have to go to a Psychiatrist or Psychologist, at least these people are offering group sessions where you can openly talk about your depression and issues and all that is "Yours" and it feels less scary in the group and you are saved from the society putting a label on you. So their role is very critical, important and very much necessary. Their work is towards Your "Experiences" and "Your Knowlege about that which is yours".

Till the time "Your Focus" is on what/how/where/when is "Yours" and not on just "You" until then you do not need an Enlightened/Self-Realized Master. Because such a Master's powers and teachings will expand the Consciousness that YOU are, it will bring out the REAL YOU, the BEING. The work of Ascended Masters is towards that "Experiencer and Knower" behind whom the Real You is hiding. By speeding up your karmic cycle, they help you get rid of that Experiencer who wants to experience all dimensions and this endless infinity, except oneself, that Knower who wants to know all about everything that exists or does not exist, except oneself. Enlightened Masters help you Experience the Experiencer, Know the Knower and finally just "Be".

Long time back I read their (Anthony, David, Sigmund, Carl Jung and more) books and materials too and lot more literature on Psychology, Geology, Science and anything else you can imagine only to realize that there is no end to "knowing" and "experiencing" and I am not the Experiencer and Knower. Who I am, that needs to be found and it cannot be found through these ways of indulging in knowledge gathering and experiencing.

Now before you decide whom to reach out to, ask yourself - Is it still about your life, your love, your relationships, your wealth, your powers, your wounds, your emotions, your world, your path or is it now about YOU?

If the question still is of what is yours, how (in what condition) is yours, where is yours or when is yours, then better read/listen or have sessions with Anthony, Deepak or people like them because you do need them. There is no harm or shame in realizing that you are NOT yet at that level and you can be helped by them.

If it is about "YOU" then an Enlightened/Self-Realized/Awakened Master (with the body or without body) will FIND YOU! You do not need to search hard or look for. You will be guided in magical, mystical ways to reach them, meet them and you will find a way.

Bless You!
~ Adiguru

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Million Fingers - Pointing to the same Moon!

Many people read lots of Spiritual Scriptures, Texts, Upanishads, Vedas, Tantra Scriptures and Spiritual Journey of Enlightened, Self-Realized Masters and try to understand them really hard. They try to find the "Ultimate Truth", "Christ Consciousness", "Brahm/Shiva/Shoonya/THAT" in those scriptures. After years of struggle, their efforts go in vain and ultimately they become disappointed by all the Scriptures and starts to "not believe" in any of them. Initially they "believed" in them thinking they will find the Ultimate Truth/Brahm/Shiva/Shoonya/Anatta/No-Self in them. They also feel really surprised by the fact that they all contradict each other, it feels to them as if All Enlightened Masters were against each other and all teachings are opposite of one another. This makes them wonder how come they all achieved to the ONE TRUTH when they can't describe it in a similar way? How come there must be some "Ultimate Truth" when all Scriptures talks about it differently? How can Enlightenment be similar for all these Masters? They think definitely Enlightenment, Self-Realization for one Master may be different from another. Is it really so?

The first point to understand here is that Enlightened Masters lives/lived in different Era/Time, Culture, Country and are surrounded by different people to whom they are explaining their own experience, their journey. That explanation becomes the Sacred, Spiritual Scripture. For example, Yeshua/Jesus was in Jerusalem, Lao Tsu was in China, Nanak, Kabir, Sadhguru, Ramana Maharishi, Osho, Yogananda, Buddha, Nisargadatta and so many others in India, Rumi in Turkey, Adyashanti in the USA, Eckhart Tolle in Germany, Gurdjieff in France and so on. In other words, this means that people living in any country or anywhere on this planet Earth pursue their Spiritual Journey Consciously and are Enlightened, Self-Realized. Enlightenment/Self-Realization is not the private property of some limited age, cast, creed, country, religious people. It happens to all those who are hell-bent upon finding the TRUTH! Who are damn serious about fixing themselves and filling all the holes so they can be WHOLE!

Once anyone is Enlightened/Self-Realized people around notice the change and can't stop asking about it and by and by the word goes around and many become disciples, many come to get guidance and they start explaining by writing or through talks or just through Shakti/Gyan-Power. They are not trying to boast about themselves or pull others down, they are simply trying to explain it using the vocabulary that they have got, and the people around them have got. Enlightenment/Self-Realization "cannot" be explained in any language, through verbal or written communication. Forget about Enlightenment, even "deep love, unconditional love" can't be explained. In fact, anything that Transforms you can't be explained in "words". But still, because the people around want to know, and most of them only understand language/words, hence Enlightened Masters have to explain it using the words/language, cultural/era/time/societal references. So the Sacred Spiritual Scriptures have a different language, tone, cultural references, examples in them. For example, a MOON is called as Chand, Chandrama, Lune, Mond, Mane and so on in different languages and even in one language the poetic reference to Moon will be different than Scientific reference and there could be many subtle meanings of the same words. If anyone reads the Poetry on Moon in different languages I am sure one will "wonder" if all Poets were talking about the "same moon" that he/she is "knows" about? Or every poets' country/place have a different moon? :-) Isn't it? Nowadays we have Google Earth to show us the Sky in real-time but when the world was not so advance and there is no way to communicate with the people of other countries, then one may have thought that the moon visible to him/her is the "special", "private" one and if one ever sees this in the Sky it surely always should be called as Moon only and nothing else.

So you see, all the Enlightened Masters were and are Pointing to the "same moon". All Sacred Spiritual Scriptures are pointing to the "same Truth". But since the Masters were and are in different places and have a different audience around them hence the explanation seems different. So there are thousands of fingers, and all are different from each other, but all are pointing to the "same moon".

Now, the problem comes when you try to find the Ultimate Truth in those Spiritual Scriptures, when you try to find the Moon in the Finger. And then you feel disappointed and create beliefs/non-beliefs/opinions about. But Ultimate Truth, Moon is not there! You will never find it there! All those Scriptures are trying to explain you hundreds of ways you can reach that Moon, hundreds of paths you can follow to reach that moon. There is not one way only to reach there, there are many. Everyone is born with unique karma & sanskaras (Impressions) and hence will walk his/her own path, his/her own way. One needs to find one's own way. These scriptures are giving you a surety that so many others have reached the Moon, so you can too.

When you read these scriptures you try to understand everything using your Mind which is very limited and cannot understand the Infinite, Ultimate Truth and hence everything seems highly contradictory and as if opposing each other. While it is not so. Once you are Enlightened you realize the Truth in every word that is ever written or said about Ascending/Enlightenment/Self-Realization and you realize that they all are same, because "now you have seen the moon" so you can recognize it in every way, everywhere. Until you have "not seen the moon" all fingers seem different and it seems like all are pointing to different moons and because those fingers are talking about the moon then it must be inside those fingers. Until then you feel Truth is not One. Because you don't know the Truth, how can you ever recognize it, understand it? It's not for your mental understanding at all. It is for direct experience! Chanting water, water, water will not quench your thirst. You can't even understand the word "water" just by reading about it and you won't find it's wetness, it's subtle flow and power to satisfy your thirst just by reading about it.

So instead of performing intellectual postmortem of those Scriptures and doing mental gymnastic about them, start focusing on YOU! It's about "You", and not those Enlightened Masters or Scriptures! If you really want to succeed then go within and see if you need to dissolve some blocks or if you need to heal yourself to move forward. See what all you are still attached to? What all you still fear? No Guru, No Master, No Scripture, No Grace, No Magic, No Mantra, nothing can help you Ascend if you are clinging to your fake self in any way. It's your choice, your journey to walk your own hell and come out of it. There are absolutely no shortcuts and no clever buying of tickets to heaven.

Have a head-on collision with all that you call I, Me, Mine!

The one who looks within Awakens! Awakens not on day 1 or day 2 or month 1 or month 2 or year 1 or year 2.... It takes times to get rid of yourself, your fake self, your Jeeva.

~ Adiguru

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Ocean of Consciousness! Dance of Life!

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I am Shiva, that which is not!

Being Nothing, No-Self, No-Mind!

When you drink ALL tea from your Tea Cup, is it EMPTY? It is ONLY EMPTY of TEA. It's still NOT Empty. It has AIR in it now. Empty and Full needs something to attach/identify to it, right? I may say, today my house is FULL, but what it is full of? It is full of people, it is full of furniture, it is full of something. Now if I say my house is EMPTY today, then it may be EMPTY of people, of furniture, of plants, of something and if I take away Everything out of it, will it be Empty, no? It will still have AIR in it. Emptiness and Fullness needs classification/objects/identity/something with it. So that means Emptiness and Fullness are NOT COMPLETE words as they seem to be. It also means they are INTERCHANGEABLE, means if Tea Cup was Empty of Tea, then it was FULL of Air. Empty of something means Full of something else. Empty of EVERYTHING means FULL of NOTHING. This also means that both of these words are USELESS and are NOT TRUE. 

Now let's see what is Tea Cup? Tea Cup is Earth, Water, Fire, Air, Space and some person must have created it, so it's everything. The person who created the Tea Cup must be eating, living, breathing with the help of everything on this planet Earth. If we take out "everything" from the Tea Cup, then will there be any Tea Cup? No! Tea Cup is everything, this whole Universe, and so are we. If this Earth, Water, Fire, Air, Space, whole Universe is taken out from us, what will we be? Nothing! We are Nothing, No-Self. And that's who we are. We have No-Individual Self, no Personal Self, no Identity and that is the ONLY IDENTITY we have. No-Self means not being defined, confined by ALL THAT what makes us? What makes us is NOT us. And what is that makes us up? THIS WHOLE UNIVERSE. WE ARE THE UNIVERSE. That means WE are FULL of UNIVERSE, FULL of EVERYTHING, that means WE ARE EMPTY OF NOTHING. That means we are NOTHING. If WHOLE UNIVERSE is taken out of the Equation, or from us, what will still EXIST? That which is NOT. What will still exist? Nothingness. No Self, Emptiness, Shiva. So, in other words, our TRUE IDENTITY is NO-IDENTITY, our TRUE SELF is NO-SELF. That is who we are. If we take out all MANIFESTED part of the UNIVERSE or ENERGY, then what will still be there, UN-MANIFEST part of the Energy, or Pure Consciousness. If we take out BOTH, Manifest, and Un-Manifest, what is there that will still exist, NOTHING. NOTHINGNESS, VOID, SHOONYA, SHIVA, EMPTINESS, NO-SELF. 

After Enlightenment comes the Self Realization. What do we realize at that point? We Realize that We are Pure Consciousness and that we do not exist as ANYTHING else (body, mind, emotion, ego, identities, person, personalities etc). It's the Realization of Death of what? The death of ALL that which we were NOT. Like when we removed Earth, Water, fire, Air, ether from Tea Cup, we Realized that Cup was NOT all these, so all the wrong Identities of the Cup died. So the acceptance of Death while Self Realization is the Death of all that was NOT ME. Then that means I AM THAT WHICH IS NOT. What is that which is not? That is NOTHING, NOTHINGNESS, EMPTINESS, VOID, SHOONYA, SHIVA. Where does this Pure Consciousness comes from? Which takes the form of ALL God, Goddesses, Avatars, Gurus, Avadhootas, Adishakti, all manifest and unmanifest or Primordial from which the FIRST manifestation starts with. Where does it come from? It comes from VOID, it comes from NOTHINGNESS/SHIVA. Science, Quantum Physics said the same thing, whole Existence, Universe came into being, came into existence from the VOID, from Nothing, from Emptiness.

So ultimately I am THAT which is NOT. In other words, I am NOT. Here in the term "No-Self", Self Refers to Soul, Soul means Consciousness, it came from Pure Consciousness. So when I say No-Self, I am saying I am NOT all that. I am saying I AM NOT. This is what "we truly are". When I say I am Nothingness, then it means When NOTHING will EXISTS, NOTHING means I will EXIST. So now what is it that will exist TRULY INFINITE INFINITELY? "ME", "ME as Nothingness", Me as Nothing was ALWAYS there, and will ALWAYS be there. If you take out Nothing from Nothing, then Nothing will still be there. Zero minus Zero is Zero. Everything minus Everything equals Nothing. So I was, I am and I always will be there. This is who truly I am. This is a permanent existence. Existence as No-Personal Identity, that is our True, Permanent Identity.

~ Adiguru

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Guru

Who and what is a Guru? How Guru plays a role? How does Guru help?  

Many books and people recommend that having a living Spiritual Guru in one's life is an absolute must and no one can progress without one. My direct experience of Guru is very different, though. I have/had no living Guru in this life, like many other Self Realized ones. I understand and agree with the fact that living Guru can save us from a lot of downfalls and can uplift us when needed. But first we need to understand that Guru is NOT a Physical Body. Guru is THAT, Guru is the All-Pervading Self. Guru is Everywhere and so Guru is in Everyone. It can't be otherwise. Whenever I needed guidance or direction in life, some book, sometimes even just a sentence from here or there, took my whole attention and showed me what direction I should take. One after the other books that I purchased, if now I look at the sequence in which I read them, it all seems very well planned, it all seems perfectly arranged. Every person that I met was giving me a message, was showing me something within me, and it all worked the way a real living Guru would have. When I was going through my Self Realization and was struggling, my friend Rob Sacks, just appeared from nowhere and pushed me into it, so the process can be completed sooner. My two other friends, Carol Hopkins, and Arathi Kurahatti kept pushing me to write or record what I am going through and kept me in this body. When I went into long Self-Absorption sessions, kids & my family kept on demanding my attention one way or the other to bring back my body consciousness. My friend was driving me around so I do not have to drive for few days. Guru is Self, and Guru is Everywhere and Guru is in Everyone. So Guru played through my friends, my family, kids around me, as and when I needed. The whole Universe became my Guru, and I had so many around me all the time, to make my journey successful. I can never say enough Thanks to all of them, whose presence helped me walk the path of Liberation.  

तस्मै श्री गुरवे नमः

~ Adiguru

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Mystery of the Lotus Flower

My early childhood was spent in a house in Lalitpur, UP India, which was on the shore of a huge water pond (Talab in Hindi) called Raja Mansingh Talab, little smaller than the river, but very deep and larger than any usual pond. Many temples were situated all around the shore of it.  Many accidents & deaths used to happen in that huge talab as it was so deep and had water snakes, crocodiles and what not and on one far end, it had a huge swamp full of water weed and lots of Pink Lotus flowers. 

    Lalitpur - Religious Celebration on the temples around Raja Mansingh Talab at night

    Lalitpur - Temples around Raja Mansingh Talab

I lived in that house near temples since I was 6 years old till I was 9. The temples & talab shore were my playgrounds and some of the priests knew my father and they knew I was his daughter. Often I used to play with my younger sister & brother there in the afternoons after coming back from school and my favorite activity was to sit on the back of the Durga Temple and look at that far away swamp where there were so many Pink Lotuses. For hours I used to stare at those lotus flowers without having a sense of time or my surroundings. 

    Pink Lotus

After evening Prayers/Arti in the temples, devotees used to get some Prasad (sweets offerings) and I often went inside the temples just to see if there is a Lotus Flower as some devotee may have offered that to the Goddess/Deity and if I see one I used to ask the priest to give me that as Prasad instead of sweets or fruit, but rarely I got any. Then I used to stare at them from far for hours. Flower sellers used to sell very few lotuses that too around 4:00 AM in the morning at temples opening time. It was very difficult and dangerous to get to that swamp to get those Lotuses. When I did not get any then the only thing was to just go at the back of the Durga Temple, sit close to the edge of the Talab and watch them from far. My fascination with them kept growing and I just wanted to be as close to them as possible and wanted to have some really bad. 

When I was 9 yrs old, one afternoon I just couldn't stop myself and decided to get down in the water and go to that swamp so I can pluck some lotus flowers. I did not know swimming and had no idea how will I reach there. But I was determined, so I slowly got down into the water which was up to my chest and slowly I started walking. Every step I was scared thinking that there might be snakes and what if crocodile comes near me and what if that swamp just swallows me, or if I get stuck there and so many people die in this Talab every year. So every step I was fighting that fear within me but my eyes, my gaze was locked by those flowers and I kept walking. It was as if those lotuses were calling me. Then I arrived at that swamp and I realized that I am sure going to get stuck and will be late for back home and my mother is going to give me a real harsh punishment today. So I tried to walk faster, water depth was above my waist but the water there was muddy and dirty and water weed was entangling in my feet and twice I felt as if water snake just crossed and touched my legs. Continuously struggling to find some ground beneath my feet, I fell into that swamp and almost drowned, but then I was more worried about my parents scolding me if I went late or with dirty clothes, I hurriedly somehow stood up and again started walking. Finally, after more than an hour of walking, I reached the closest bunch of Lotus Flowers, I tried to pluck one and realized it has a very long stem and it's hard to break them. After much struggle, I managed to get 3-4 lotus flowers and I felt so happy as if I have got the whole world. I was extremely happy. After taking few breaths I realized it's getting dark and I need to get out of this swamp and talab, but the moment I turned my back and looked around I realized I couldn't see the shore, I did not know which direction to walk back and I became really worried thinking that my parents are definitely going to beat me today. So whatever came to my mind I just started walking back with flowers in my hand and after one and half hours I entered home with my face, hairs and frock all dirty, drenched in water, I even lost one of my slippers in the swamp, the moment my mom saw me she got towel and cleaned me and to my surprise did not scold me. Then I realized there was a search going on for me as it was more than 4 hours that I was missing. 

So this was the height of my mad fascination with Lotus Flowers and I did not know why there was such a strong bond and love I felt for only those flowers. No other flower I found that magical.  

Now in 2009, I moved from Iowa to Florida in the USA. It was spring time and my first day in the small town Lake Mary near Orlando. That town is full of ponds and is one of the most beautiful places to live. It was my first day in office so I was driving to my office and on the way, I saw a pond full of same Pink Lotuses. I immediately put the break in my car and stopped it in the nearby parking. It was around 8:45 AM and I thought I still have 10 minutes to reach the office, let me just go to that pond to look, after all, it's been a lifetime since I saw Pink Lotuses. I was very happy to find some in Florida and it was my first day in Florida, overall it was a very happy day for me. After parking the car, I almost ran towards the pond and watched lotuses in complete awe, stood there for a couple of minutes and then I came back to my car. When I turned on my car the time displayed was 9:25 AM, I thought what the heck, I looked at my wrist watch it displayed 9:25, I checked my phone and it was 9:25. I took a deep breath and sat there for few minutes to understand what just happened? I only stood there watching pink lotuses for a moment, a couple of minutes may be, how did 40 minutes went by and I did not realize at all. I just couldn't believe. 

I kept wondering whole day while working in the new company/office that I joined that day. In the evening when I was driving back it suddenly occurred to me that "I went into Trance and that's why I lost the sense of Time & Space" and instantly I realized that since childhood Pink Lotus flower was actually pushing me into the Transcendental State. Hence the reason I was so mad, so fascinated and so madly in love with them. 

From 2011, I was walking my spiritual journey consciously. Then in 2016 when Self Realization happened I realized I became a Lotus Flower as the Sahasrar/7th Chakra blossomed full blown as a Thousand Petal Lotus. 

Universe was sending me reminders in such a beautiful manner through pink Lotuses all along in my life. Even when I had a body like a child, Universe knew the Soul and created such a magical bond between me and the Lotuses, so I do not forget ever what did I came here for, why I had this human body and why this is my last life. The pull of this pink Lotus was the pull of Divine/SELF within me, as me, it was a calling within me all along. Real lotuses around me were just the symbols. I could have lived anywhere else, but no, Universe arranged my life around Temples only, first in Lalitpur and then in Mathura, Vrindavan where Yamuna River shore was full of pink Lotuses.

Finally, I learned and am living the Secret of the Lotus Flower. 

And just recently in May 2017,  I realized that this thousand petal Lotus Flower holds a really shiny jewel on the top middle of my forehead which keeps me showered in its light. Never before I felt the lotus flower so divine with beauty beyond words. Eyes open or close all I see is that Divine Light and that fountain of light which emerges from that Jewel. 

The search for Lotus flower ended and so did the mystery :-)

~ Adiguru

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Renunciation, Grace & Choice!

When I was around 14 yrs of age we were living in a small town Lalitpur in UP, India. My father was a doctor, ENT Surgeon in the government hospital there. In the summer time when schools were closed on May 15th, 1989 a Super fast train Karnataka Express was derailed just on the outskirts of Lalitpur. More than 9-10 coaches of the train came tumbling down from the bridge over the small river. It was a really horrible disaster and everyone in the town was going there to help and when I learned about it, I just wanted to go there to help too, but my parents understood what could be there so they strictly denied and said it's not a place for children, and went there without taking me on the first day. So second day when they were out there, I went to my convent school's Mother & Sisters/Nuns and I saw them gathering supplies for Red Cross. I told them please admit me in Red Cross right away because I also want to go there and help. Mother Jude looked at me as no other kid was there, it was summer vacation, but somehow she said OK, you can help us distribute these water bottles and they took me in the van with them.

    Image Source - Web/News

When I reached the site of the train accident, what I saw I couldn't have ever imagined in my wildest dreams. Train coaches were scattered, were upside down as if toys lying here and there, two coaches were on fire, a ton of black smoke, dead bodies, burned, with limbs, without limbs, blood, flies, crows, vultures around, people screaming, crying, people's clothes soaked in blood. Few coaches got electric current passed in them when the speeding electric train broke the connecting wires, so some bodies were electrocuted, some fell into the river and their bodies were swollen. There were dead kids, their shoes with blood, many toddlers orphaned, people couldn't find their family, most of the bodies couldn't even be recognized, identified. So many injured were crying out loud looking for their family members and finding their bodies. Police and Hospital staff set up the makeshift morgue to put all bodies that they found around and in the Train coaches and were continuously pulling out. Many suitcases with costly sarees & jewelry were lying open as the train was coming from South India, Karnataka and was full of many wealthy people, families.

It was a highly devastating sight and very painful one showcasing the Dance of Death with utmost cruelty! I was making my way by crossing over the bodies and limbs around to get to the injured and give them water to drink and see how else I could help as I learned the entire first-aid from my doctor parents.

The first day when I was there, I was very angry at God, and painful and asked the question within myself - How can God do this to these people? Does God even exist? Why people are even born if everyone has to die? Why did I born? I was questioning my very own existence. The devastation, pain, and misery around me were just too much to take in and numbed my mind, made me thoughtless.

The second day that I was there, another question was echoing very loud within me, over and over again - Why should we live, if everything has to end so abruptly, suddenly? Why do people gather so much wealth when it's of no use, they died suddenly and left all their valuables which look like garbage now? I couldn't stop thinking that many people were going for celebrations and were about to meet their families & loved ones in Delhi, many had family members waiting at home to return. But NO! No one reached where they thought or planned for, instead hundreds around me are just lying burnt or electrocuted or butchered not even to be identified by their own family members due to the horribly distorted body. I had so much pain within me seeing the FUTILITY OF LIFE. This was my INITIATION into RENUNCIATION. It seemed Death is the Only Truth that exists, all else is just useless, false. How does that matter who and what one has when Death one day will end everything so cruelly? The bare naked truth of Death, Pain, and Misery was in front of me, that too in the incomprehensible amount.

The third day I was helping everyone there with super speed, I suddenly found the energy and speed thinking that I will die too and it could be tomorrow or any moment, so I need to get everything done really fast and today. I need to help these injured but alive ones and stop thinking about all those dead ones. In my past 40 years of life, people around me always wondered and questioned me why I was so short of patience (that's how they saw it) and why things couldn't wait? And my parents were seriously annoyed for the rest of their life due to my "sense of urgency" in everything that I did or wanted to do or wanted to happen. The sense that "I am mortal" took deep roots in me and after that day, I just lived in TODAY, NOW and there was no time to ponder or hang on to the past and no time to worry too much about future, no too much thinking, just doing whatever was in front of me that day, that hour, that moment. I excelled in everything that I did in a very short amount of time, without knowing what is fueling all outcomes, what is giving me the energy to keep going. It was that realization of "being mortal". It never let me hold on to yesterday, on to the past in any way and it did not let me procrastinate or dream about some future for which I may or may not even be alive. Letting go everything of yesterday, of past became my living practice.

After 3 days I couldn't eat, sleep or even cry and had a high fever and couldn't go there anymore. My parents scolded me for going there and not listening to them and they tried hard to make me cry as they thought I went into shock. But no I wasn't in shock.

That pain was consuming me but my burning questions needed answers, my focus was on my questions. I wanted to know what is this drama that we play whole life when death will take everything away from us. Why people born? Why should I live? This life is totally meaningless and death is the ultimate truth. After few days I asked these questions to my father and he thought that train accident had a deep impact on me and he said don't think too much about it, a human body is mortal, everyone who is born will die one day but Soul lives forever. But that answer didn't satisfy me. I asked him to get me Vedas, Purans, Gita, Bible, Koran, Torah everything that he could as I wanted to know, I was restless and needed answers. He got me everything and I started reading, within 3-4 months I was done with the reading and realizing that I still couldn't find my answers.
Because those answers couldn't be grasped by the mind, by reading, such existential wisdom is meant for experiential reality. But I never stopped asking those questions until Enlightenment happened.

I lived my life in so much pain, pain that couldn't be described, couldn't be attached to anything particular.

Before this train tragedy whenever I used to go to Hospital to my father I used to see sick and poor and dead around me and always I felt as if I could mirror their pain as is in me and I felt so painful that I used to write poetry after seeing all that, poetry full of pain, stories full of pain of life. Even the tree shedding it's leaves in autumn seemed so painful to me. The cause of my pain was "separation" and it is the biggest "illusion/Maya/ignorance" that we live in and it cannot be removed until it becomes our experiential reality through Enlightenment or Self-Realization. No matter how many Guru's or Religious, Spiritual scriptures tell us that "It's All One, we are in Union always", there is no way to mentally grasp it or understand it. Our perception has to change to bring it to reality, so we can live that Union.

Now the Pain that this train accident caused was seen as a curse by so many people around me who went there to help because it made them experience such horrible things and many became fearful and paranoid and some were haunted in their dreams for more than a year. I did not become fearful, I wasn't holding onto the dead or injured, I was holding onto my questions. I did not go into any depression as pain in me was pushing me to find the answers. I became true renunciate by heart and accepted my own mortality and started living from that. So this pain that I went through for so long was a GRACE bestowed upon me to show me the "futility of living life in a mundane way, gathering so much material wealth, losing love & compassion and choosing greed, choosing fear and not love to live life, constantly keeping oneself busy with mundane and refusing to look at the big picture" and all these became the foundation for my life and spiritual journey.

Grace is not just the good results of our efforts. Grace is also our capacity, the capability to make those efforts. Grace is the ability to see the choices and make the right choice. I could have gone into fear and mental imbalance after experiencing so much pain of that train tragedy, but it did nothing like that to me, instead transformed me, gave me the tremendous amount of powerful pain and forced me to ASK the Questions and LOOK for the answers, that everyone in the human body should be asking themselves and should be finding answers for. I chose that pain and looked at it as grace and became a renunciate in just a few hours. Since then, I owned houses, cars, relationships, but nothing could ever own me at all, I could leave everything behind in a moment, I had no fear of losing anything at all including my body. Kindness and Compassion were the only conditionings that happened to my mind. I discarded all bookish knowledge, so called religious rituals and practices, and wanted to have Direct Experience of Life. Belief systems couldn't take place in me. I became fearless in everything I did, like playing, catching snakes or climbing mountains or speed driving. I was very clear about the fact that "I am going to die one day, so I will not die every day in fear at all". I chose to live fully every day before that one day/moment of death comes to me.

All this was a very powerful way of living, living from the heart fearlessly, full of love and compassion. Neither keeping past/grudges/issues in my heart instead forgiving people quickly, nor keep dreaming of some rosy future, rosy life, lofty worldly or spiritual goal. After this incident I could never see the life, the people around me in the same way and realized that I need to put myself in their shoes in order to understand them because everyone's life is full of Pain. And on the other side, that pain kept pushing me to find answers so I can not only eliminate my pain but other's pain too. Helping others became my motto, as I realized life is hard, cruel and death is the ultimate truth. I lived in the world but never belonged to it, I was in the world but was outsider there.

So grace could be bestowed upon us in so many ways, pain is grace too.

Here is the link to that train tragedy news and pictures for curious & courageous ones.

- http://indiatoday.intoday.in/story/karnataka-express-derailment-shows-indian-railways-basic-infrastructure-remains-inadequate/1/323468.html

Do not click on this link if you are a chicken by heart, as it has some really disturbing pictures.

Whatever it is that life is throwing at you, you could turn it into Grace by making a Conscious choice. Grace is always there, you have to let it work. Life has many possibilities and we have to choose which possibility we want to bring to reality and that's how we create, we write our own destiny. We can choose Love over Fear. We can choose Pain over mundane temporary pleasures of life. We could choose freedom over temporarily comforting beliefs systems of our society. We could choose the strength of our heart over living in fears. We could choose strong will power to survive anything in life over depression and mental imbalance.

It's our choice!

When we choose Fear, the bad astrological predictions, bad possibilities become our living reality. I could have chosen fear instead of pain as I was just a child/teen and could have lived with depression for many years to come. I could have chosen that horrible scene to dream horrible dreams. I could have let that train tragedy destroy me in so many ways. There were so many possibilities. But I consciously chose pain, pain as a Grace. I accepted that Pain and accepted that it is meant for something else which I do not understand now and I was OK with being miserable within, instead of surrendering to Fear. I refused to accept fear! And that choice changed the whole outcome as I am living here today in front of you as a WHOLE BEING. Not broken, not emotionally or mentally fractured, not fearful, doing everything with love and compassion, helping others without any expectations. Then will you say I made the wrong choice? Because I lived for 25 years in indescribable Pain until my Enlightenment. Just imagine how me choosing fear at that time would have turned out? Who or what it would have made me? What it would have done to me? Possibilities were so many, right? But we all have a choice ALWAYS. Any situation, event, person, circumstance in life always shows us so many possibilities and gives us many choices. It's up to us what we choose.

When one loves oneself, he/she will accept Pain rather than being fearful. Love over fear is a choice. And it's not necessary that choosing Love is going to be very comfortable, soothing for you. Love and Fear are the two sides of one coin. Self-Love is not about rejecting pain and always looking for comforts, easiness, peace. Self Love is the love for and love of your own Soul/Atma and could bring tremendous amount of unexplainable pain, could stir one's life very deeply. That pain could help one evolve, fear only makes devolution happen, it's a waste of time and life-energy. Choosing a difficult path than surrendering to fear is what makes us evolve and be wholesome some day. Letting fear consume you is easy, gathering your will-power and choosing pain, Self-love is difficult. But you can see how it can transform one for good forever. And this is not a one-time choice, we make that choice every day, it's a fight every day.

Just see what choices are you making in life and what your past choices have done to you. How many times you gave into your Fear? How many of your life choices were made out of fear? How many decisions you took to stay in your fear? And see what all it has gotten you into. Do you have PEACE in your heart when you sleep at night? Do you have really truthful, sparkling, smiling eyes? Are you joyful within? Do some retrospection and make the necessary changes. Living unhappy and dying unhappy isn't a good thing.

~ Adiguru

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Quality of Pure Consciousness: Awareness

One quality of Pure Consciousness is Awareness. And every moment (or whatever smallest moment of time one can refer to) it is Aware of what needs to be done perfectly, but the next moment doesn't have the awareness, memory, record of the very previous moment. This is totally opposite of how mind executes life. Mind executes life from the memory of previous moments only, Mind cannot function without the storehouse of memory/experiences. There is no PRESENT moment for Mind at all, it's a UN-ACHIEVABLE STATE for the mind. Only Awareness have access to PRESENT moment because Present Moment Doesn't exist in the Time Dimension, it's beyond time and space. Time is always fleeting, every nanosecond is fleeting, and Mind keeps track of all that went by, passed, over. That is how the mind works. But in order for life to function, one needs only Awareness, which keeps one rooted in NOW, rooted in Present Moment, which is a STILL STATE, NO MOVEMENT of time, No Fleeting moments at all. The State of NOW, which is a state maintained by Awareness and Not by the mind. What is meant by Living in Now? The mind needs to dissolve, merge, in order to experience Now, in order to let Awareness take control. And it's not that people do not experience this state when Awareness takes the control of life and Mind is dissolved, or immersed and loses its existence, many experiences this state often, intense love, intense sexual orgasm is one such state. But yea all those are momentary and one looses them before one could understand anything about it. On the other hand, if the absorption of mind, happens as a result of intense meditation, or due to any of the Chaitanya Samadhi, then it's prolonged experience. Since my Enlightenment, a countless number of times, I have stayed absorbed in Absolute Consciousness (Nirgun Brahm) or Nirvikalpa Samadhi, and I have got accustomed to living life simply through AWARENESS. The Longest one was right after Enlightenment for 72-75 days and then NOW only NOW is there for me, nothing else. What do I lose by living with Awareness and not the Mind? Memories! It's not that I have forgotten everything about my life, my choices, my habits, and about my past, but No New Memories are being created because life is being lived in EVERY MOMENT. When I live in every moment, what is the need to record them, recall later and enjoy or sulk over them later? Express accordingly and Live in that very moment itself, and be done. Awareness is the Quality, Tangible Manifestation of Pure Consciousness. Sometimes I like to call it "Personal Consciousness" as it is operating my life, my body.

Nirvikalpa State is a highly AWARE state, means Awareness of everything around me is there, while I am in this state, I face questions like, how come you not know that you ate breakfast today or what did you eat for breakfast today? Because Awareness means living beyond time, living in NOW/PRESENT. When I had breakfast I was 100% aware of it, and later information, experience about it is not needed, Mind is not there, so no impression was made. When you are asking me about breakfast which I had 6 hours ago, that is PAST and Awareness can only have access to Present. But still if TIME needs to be looked at, means if Time/Past/Future needs to be accessed for a Real Purpose, Awareness can easily do that, it may take few minutes to tune into the Time Channel. Awareness can get you answers about your past life, which was hundreds of years ago if it is genuinely needed, but you are only asking me something really silly like what did I eat for lunch? Mundane need not to be confused with Eternity like Life. Awareness is not meant the for mundane. Will you use Jet Plane to go to the office or you will go by car? This gives people a wrong notion that when one is in Samadhi or Absolute Consciousness State, they become forgetful. No, they do not, only to the mind it appears that way. And that too it happens when there is a SHIFT.

While I am in this Absolute Consciousness (or while it "IS"), I cannot describe the World, the Creation, neither can I describe my own body symptoms, or the Absolute itself. But yet there is Awareness, an all encompassing which is the seen, sight and the seer and I cannot call it "me/he/she/God/Divine" anything, something that operates body and life with Divine Love!

By the Love of Divine, I am here. 
For the Love of Divine, I am here.

~ Adiguru

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Universe is within you - Jagadhatri - Cosmic Mother

During my Self Realization days, when I as Pure Consciousness was in forever expansion, critical dispersion and I was going through the fear and pain of death, one day a strange thing happened. I was fearful, or you can say that last remaining I-Thought was fearful of losing itself, it's separate identity and I was sinking slowly in some very deep unknown beyond my mind's comprehension. I truly wanted someone to assure me that I am really not dying, while on the other side I really wanted to lose that battle and die for good, without knowing what may or may not happen as a result of this process, without being concerned whether I will be able to retain body consciousness or not afterwards. I was frantically looking for a sign or Guru or someone to tell me that "it's OK, it will be OK". Energy changes were torturous enough and my head felt like it will crack open.

In the midst of all this I sat quietly as if to meditate, and slowly saw myself expanding and becoming huge like entire Cosmos, and this expansion itself might have taken more than 30 minutes, as it seems like in total I was lost for more than an hour. Then I saw and felt all the planets rotating, revolving in me, around me, all mountains in myself, all rivers flowing within me, people, trees all around me, either I became the Entire Universe or we can say entire Universe was within me. I stopped breathing completely and lost all sense of "me as a separate entity". After an hour when I regained my senses, there was a very strong knowing that if I am the entire Universe then where can I go, what else can I be, what else can I not be? When did I not exist, where will I not exist? I am not leaving, I am not dying, not going anywhere because I do not exist anymore as I, I am the WHOLE, truly the Entire Cosmos I am, I never came into being as a separate entity and hence there is no question of death or departing of Soul to some other place.

This wasn't just a vision, this was the perception through my whole being. Afterwards, this new perception kept me going and I lost all resistance to my own death, death of last remaining I-Thought/Soul/Consciousness. This is what gave me so much inner strength that there was nothing else to question, neither the process, nor the energy, neither death nor birth. Fear and pains due to energy changes were still there, but deep within I was "with the" Self-Realization process. This perception of Universe within me was a major game changer for my spiritual journey.

Months after Self Realization it occurred to me that there is Goddess named Bhuvaneshwari, also called as Cosmic Mother, or Mother of Universe, or Jagadhatri who holds the Universe within. Did I see her, became her, who is there now to tell me that, but one thing is sure, Comic Mother helps us in the last lap of our journey to reveal us our own true nature, true form and that's how we finally lose all forms and sounds. Goddess Bhuvaneshwari when doesn't want us to see the truth we see her shadow side called "Maya/Ignorance/Illusion". With the blessings of this Shakti/Power the veil of Maya is broken and beings realize their true liberated immortal nature.

~ Adiguru

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Goddess Kali - Ultimate Transformer

Since childhood I was intrigued by Goddess Durga and Goddess Kali. Goddess Durga felt like Superhuman Mother to me and later in life I learned that I carry Durga archetype personality myself. But Goddess Kali just amazed me and I felt the ferocity of her as a demon slayer when I looked at her deity but in a way I always felt I cannot understand her true presence. Her presence as Shakti meant for something else, that I had no idea about. I never felt fearful though. Whenever I saw wrong happening in this world around me, atrocities with children, women, men, and crime against humanity I felt rage inside me and that rage often gave me inner strength to stand up and face the challenges of life. Those were the times I remembered Kali thinking that is how she must have felt seeing demons wreaking havoc all around and that's why her pictures, deity looks ferocious. She protects the good ones and slays the demons. She herself is all Darkness and Blue in color and only Darkness can fight the darkness. Goddesses are certain types of Shakti/Power in themselves.

Later while going through my Spiritual Journey I realized that Kali is the feminine form of Kaal/Time and she not only slays demons, she also diminishes Time. She is the one who takes us beyond time and space. Those demons are nothing but our Ego Heads that we carry around. The skirt of hands that she wears is the Karma that she takes from us and frees us from all bondage. She is the giver of Liberation.

Recently it came to me that I want to know Mother Kali in her true form as a direct experience. I learned enough through books and all, now I wanted real experience of Mother, specially wanted to see her true picture to find out does she really looks ferocious. So I sat down closed my eyes and called her. Slowly I lost my body consciousness and there appeared dark palpitating energy of the size of the Cosmos surrounded by white milky way galaxy sort of. That black energy within was moving, breathing, living, contracting, expanding with a HUM sound and it felt as if it is me, or the sense of me being other than Mother Kali was not there, I couldn't see, feel where was me and where was The Mother. Clearly my sense of place, time was also not there, neither was my body or anything as me separate from her existed in that moment. Then started knowing as if that black moving energy engulfed by white was talking to me, and said "The Dark Nothingness that you fell into right before Self Realization was Me/Mother Kali, you fell in my lap, you fell into me". Moving, living, breathing black energy was now talking.

Then came a very strong wave of Love, just pure unconditional love and tears started rolling down my cheeks. Overwhelmed I opened my eyes and slowly came back to my senses, still overpowered by love which stayed with me, as me for next 2 days and I couldn't be stunned more by it's presence, presence of Mother Kali in me or as me. What I saw looked like picture above to an extent, except that white milky way galaxy was very thin around the periphery and dark/black palpitating energy was occupying the major portion.

It occurred to me that She is the transforming force/power/shakti, she is the one who took all my karma, she is the one who gave me liberation, she is the one who took me beyond time and space, she is the one who helped me stand up in life for anything wrong, she is the one who devastates what is not suppose to survive, she is there when my external breathing stopped. She is the destroyer of our Ego, she is the destroyer of useless thoughts, and in the end she is pure love, unconditional love and she doesn't look like how we portray her, she loves us unconditionally and she saves us from the mire of Maya.

Mother Kali is the Ultimate Transformer!

~ Adiguru

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